5am Start

Innocent

"There's a lot of difference between a human being and being human."

I heard the door open and I opened my eyes only to find Martina walk in with the doctor. She put on a look that said she was the world's saddest person but then she was far from that I'm sure she was excited at my current situation. Why should I even doubt it, she was definitely happy. The doctor seem to be telling her something I really couldn't figure out.

I had spent a week already in the hospital after gaining consciousness and I was hoping I wouldn't get out any moment soon. Damn I had to do something. Martina noticed my discomfort and said, "Xana dear, I hope everything is alright with you? " she plastered a fake smile on that face of hers, a smile that could probably drive out all my guardian angels because they'll be struck with fear. I mentally scoffed at the thought.

Noticing that I ignored her she said," X-ana, Xana dear, please talk to me, don't push me away. This is hard for me too, you know? "

I rolled my eyes and said in a bored tone " No, Martina I don't know how this is affecting you so please don't bother me after all, you're the one who has pushed me away all these years so don't fucking act like you care now, come on you can do better than this, gosh! This is a hospital just drop the act already " I finished off getting frustrated.

"Xana" she let out a sob

"Fuck! Martina I know your heart is doing somersaults out of happiness so please just drop the act would you, have some respect for this place, New beings are given life here and it's here that life is taken out of some people " I said getting angry. "After all you said a week ago that you wanted to make my exit quite easy" I said letting out a scoff.

I saw her eyes widen at this and her face paled. I've never disclosed anything she did to me to any other person, well aside my best friend. She turned to face the doctor who looked puzzled. I chuckled at that and said, " Dr. Singh, I'm so sorry you had to see my mum's dirty underwear "

She turned to the doctor and asked " This is affecting him negatively doctor, do you think he'll need psychological help?"

"Oh my gosh! Martina" I chuckled.

"Xana honey" oh so now we're going with endearment i thought, " the doctor said you could leave the hospital tomorrow " she noticed my frown and I saw delight in her eyes which she changed quickly to pain and said facing the doctor "I'm so glad that you're being discharged tomorrow " I heard the malice in her tone.

I rolled my eyes and stared at her and then I felt dizzy, then I blacked out. As though I was in a trance, the events of that fateful night rushed into my memory.

"Run Xana, run" my dad said assuringly "don't worry about me I'll come with your mother alright and we'll be safe once again, go stay with your sister"

"Dad promise me you'll be fine" I said as tears were pricking in my eyes.

"Xana go now"

" No Dad, please promise me first " I couldn't stop the tears from flowing as they were rolling down my cheeks freely.

"I promise son, I'll be fine" he said more like he was assuring himself instead of me.

I ran hurriedly not glancing back and then my curious self told me to hide in a bush which I did. I stayed there for a while and then I saw my dad exchanging words with the other man but i couldn't hear because i was quite a distance away. I heard a gunshot, then I heard another one and another.

I saw my dad drop to his knees slowly and then fell to the ground. I let out a loud scream as I was engulfed with fear and felt a pang of pain hit me as I looked down at my dad's lifeless body. I saw my mum bend on her knees for sometime and I wanted to run to her so she'll tell me my dad was ok, I don't know but then something urged me to stay where I was hiding and watch as though something strange was going to happen. Something strange did happen.