5am Start

Madre

"One of the best lessons you can learn in life is to master how to remain calm."

"What the fuck Martina " I say once I pass through the doors and get into the foyer and my eyes met hers, those green eyes I had inherited from her much to my displeasure, so unfortunate.

My stomach starts to churn and I feel like throwing up instantly as a wave of dizziness hits me due to the venom hatred I have for this woman that is speedily rising in me.

I have been dreading this moment, the day I see her again ever since I left that house. Sure of course I haven't seen her in weeks and trust me I don't give a damn even though the look she has on her face is very pitying but I'm not in the least excited to see her.

I turn to glance briefly at Ava who is seated by her then move my eyes to Calle and March who are still awake including Izzy and Tori who is giving me a sad smile all because of the drama this woman caused. Why does she have to pretend to care?

Rashid told me when he called that she came screaming my name waking everyone up in the process. She refused to leave, despite the fact that she was told i wasn't at home yet, until I went away with her because according to her they were hiding me from her and she was going to sue them and some shit like that. Damn! I should have gone back to demand full custody of myself.

I don't think i can face this woman now, can I?

I close my eyes for a moment and purse in my dry lower lip, while taking in deep breaths. I have never made anyone see my vulnerable side except Rash, even with him i hardly ever do so, I can't let them see me in that state.

I breath in and out slowly trying to calm myself down and relax my brain which is over working from so many thoughts flooding it at the moment. I always hide my feelings, of course I can do this, I motivate myself.

I open my eyes and search the room to see that he's not here. Where the fuck is he? I need him now. Has this thing happened to you, it's like you're crying but no tears fall because you're crying in your heart? Well yes that's what is happening to me right now.

"Xana" Hana she calls and I feel my breathing hasten as I recognise her spanish accent that I was once in love with, It's not very concentrated but then it's really evident in her speech. Where did my father find this woman?

"What do you want?" I ask, malice so clear in my tone.

"Come back home" cries making my heart constrict, "please I need you " she adds and i zone out thinking of what she did on the night my father was killed and all the wicked things she did to me after that. Now she has the guts to say that she needs me?

"Martina go home, I like it here" I say chucking the sadness in my heart away and walk past her to avoid all this commotion she has caused, "this is my home too" I include to make her get the message that, that house can never be my home.

"Son, please forgive me" I feel my chest constrict and I blink rapidly to prevent the tears which are welling in my eyes from falling. I gotta be strong. I can't outwardly cry twice in one evening. No, she's a liar. Don't believe her.

"Xana don't do this to her, she needs you" Ava speaks up, "she's doing drugs, she's deranged and she's gonna die"

"Fuck! then let her die" I say loudly, "after all my dad's dead right " I clench my fists so I wouldn't shed tears.

"Xana " Ava gasps shocked by my outburst, "I-I-I" she stammers, at lost for words.

Tori comes up to me and places her hands on my cheeks making me look at her in the eyes, "Son listen to me no matter how hurt you are, don't disrespect your mother in that way"