I Can't Even

Chapter 12

Although the Doctor looked slightly scared, he continued with his story.

"Yes... I fell in love with her. I kept wanting to tell her that... but I never got the chance. Every time I just thought, oh, she knows, but I regret it so much now. She's gone."

"Doct-"

"So just a warning," he said. "Because-I think- I might be falling in love with you..." He was dead serious. He was seriously warning me. It broke my heart.

I gasped. The Doctor was falling in love with me? No, he might be. There's a difference. And that was pretty quick anyway. I'm not saying I was expecting him to fall in love with me but... Yowzah.

I kept my cool. I reached for the Doctor's hand that was propping him up on the bed and covered it with my own.

"Okay," was all I said, and I think he understood.

After a couple seconds of awkwardly yet adorably staring into each other's eyes, I got up and made my way across the room. I had a feeling we were being watched. Or heard. I went to the door and said, "Watch this." I opened the door with a sudden jerk and in came Jack and Martha. The Doctor and I burst out laughing, and Martha and Jack just smiled and looked slightly embarrassed.

"We were just... um... about to knock on the door!" said a very flustered Martha. "Erm, Jack ran into me and I fell and then you opened the door and th-"

"Martha, it's fine. I would've eavesdropped on me too," I said laughing. She laughed too, but her eyes didn't share her enthusiasm. I remembered her with the Doctor back-or forward-to the end of the universe. Oh my gods, I thought. She's jealous.

Oh, dear.

Jack hadn't said anything the whole time. He had pulled up and sat on a chair from Martha's desk to the bed near me. He chuckled and kissed me on the forehead. Everyone was smiling, but somehow it didn't feel right in the room. The tension was so thick you could have cut it with a knife. Yet plastered on everyone's face was a now stupid grin. Stupid, because everyone knew their smile was fake. Even me.

"Well, congratulations, Doctor," said Captain Jack, "on falling in love again." Like Martha, he laughed, but his eyes didn't match his smile. Really? I thought. Is he jealous, too? Of me? I remembered that Jack was basically bisexual and did a double-take on my theory. I thought Jack was only homosexual, but I must have skipped over all of his flirtatious moves on the ladies. Wait... Was he... Was it possible that he could be jealous of the Doctor? For having me? It hardly seemed possible, but...

Oh, dear.

"Well!" said the Doctor. "Back to work."