violet evergreen ☀︎ a david dobrik fanfiction

20.

both david and violet didn't sleep that night. 

david lay in bed, eyes fixed to the ceiling, dried tears staining his pale cheeks, mind numb to any feeling.

violet on the other hand watched the passing traffic from her bedroom window, alcohol bottle clenched in her hand so tightly that her knuckles had turned a ghostly white and the red wine staining her chapped lips deep crimson. her brain swirled with dark thoughts, tearing her apart.

by the time the sun had risen neither had moved from their spots, it was as if they were paralysed. 

all violet wanted was to be back home. but she didn't mean her dorm room back in la, she meant her real home, the one in england. 

not that she would ever admit to anyone but herself, but violet had gone through a lot of sadness in her life. she thought her move to america would be the definitive end of that sorrowful chapter, but every single thing she had repressed was flooding back to her. 

all those endless nights spent muffling her crying, all those times she had convinced herself she was worthless. every single depressive episode was coming back to haunt her.

she wiped her tears, checking the details of the flight one last time before she pressed confirm. 

she hadn't had much money whilst she was in america, but whenever she had anything extra lying around it would be transferred straight into her savings account. she even worked out that by her graduation she would have pretty much enough for an apartment deposit if she chose to stay and work in america. after becoming so close to david she could never imagine a life without him so if it meant cutting out luxuries and working a few extra shifts it would be worth it. 

but now all that was gone, every single penny spent on an overpriced plane ticket back home.

she didn't care about all of her belongings that she was leaving in her flat, or that she would be missing her classes. she just needed to escape. 

with a note slipped under davids door, and one final look at the life she was leaving behind, she left.

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she slipped through her front door, worried about the reaction by her family. "hey puppies" she cooed, flopping down to the floor to cuddle with her two dogs. "more excited seeing the dogs than your own sister?" a voice chuckled from above her as her family came into sight, all sporting apologetic smiles. 

"i'm sorry i didn't give you much notice" violet sighed as she joined everyone on the sofa, mentally preparing herself for the bombardment of questions she was about to receive. "this is your home violet, you can come whenever you want. but i think we should talk about what happened" her mother insisted, placing a comforting hand on her shoulder. "nothing happened, i was just under a lot of stress and was feeling a little homesick" she lied, watching her mum roll her eyes. she always knew when her children were lying, no matter how hard they tried to hide it. "feeling a little homesick doesn't result in you catching a last minute flight back here with nothing but a tiny rucksack."

the girl had finally excused herself from the living room, still maintaining her 'homesick' storyline to her family who had eventually given up and let her go to bed. 

she had only just checked her phone, seeing the multitude of messages that she had received in the 15 hours since she had been in vegas. 

ollieee ✰

when will you be back from vegas? i want to apologise to you in person 

jason ☺︎

is david with you? he isn't answering my calls and i need to ask him about a bit for my vlog

carly (hunty) ☕︎

want to come over and film a blog squad gossip with us? we will love you forever 

trish like fish ♛

everything okay babe? no one has heard from you or david for a while ♥︎ 

daviddobrik™

don't tell anyone what happened

she broke down and cried, not bothering to muffle her sobbing as she climbed beneath the covers of her bed choosing to ignore the problem rather than facing everything. 

she couldn't bring herself to reply, but the guilt of not telling anyone about her being back in england was eating away at her.