Stalker- Yang Hongseok

#10

Two weeks had passed, and I hadn't heard a word from Rena. I guess she was having a hard time and just wanted to be alone. But it seemed like she was having a hard time because of me..
What had I done?
- are you thinking about Rena again?
Hongseok asked me.
We where in my room. It was Saturday, and he was gonna spend the whole weekend at my place. It was hard to get Jaehyuk to agree to it, but after arguing about it for a while, he got so tired that he just said yes.
- it's just.. I don't know what happened.
I answered.
- you're going to go crazy if you keep thinking that you did something wrong.
Hongseok said.
- especially when I don't even know if i did something wrong or not.
I said.
- no matter what.. everyone makes mistakes.
Hongseok said.

We decided to not talk about it anymore. I had to bring my brother his medicine. I could hear him and Krystal arguing inside his room. I know what they where arguing about. Jaehyuk wouldn't even let her help him with paying for a hospital stay. I know she was just as frustrated as me. Why did Jaehyuk always refuse help? When all he had done was helping others..
I nocked on the door, and Krystal answered.
She was leaving his room, but not before giving me the look. The look of hopelessness.
- you do know you're hurting her as well as yourself?
I asked Jaehyuk.
- Yerin. Please.
He just said.
- I'm not trying to make you feel bad. I'm just telling you the truth.
I said.
- telling the truth is overrated.
Jaehyuk said.
Ok.. he's definitely just being negative now because he can.
- you should sleep.
I told him, and touched his forehead.
It's so cold.. why is he so cold?
Jaehyuk had already fallen asleep, so I left his room.
I found Krystal and Hongseok, eating lunch in the kitchen.
- thank you hongseok. I'll try that.
Krystal said, and left the kitchen.
- what was that about?
I asked.
- I just gave her some advice on how to convince your brother to go to the hospital.
He said, and smiled.
- that's so sweet.
I said, and kissed him.

I decided to take a shower while Hongseok finished eating. After the shower, I got dressed in a pink dress with white flowers on it. I recently bought it, because I had suddenly realized how much money I had actually saved up. I could buy a whole new wardrobe if I wanted too.

I went back down to the kitchen. Hongseok was on the phone with someone. He ended it when he saw me.
- she's ready to talk.
He said.
- who?
I asked.
- Seunghee.
He answered.

I wasn't sure if I was tough enough to talk to her. But I agreed anyways. We were going to meet her at pentagon's dorm. We got dressed and took the bus. I was starting to consider getting my drivers license. I was an adult now, and being able to drive would have lot of benefits.

When we got off the bus, I almost ran inside it again, but Hongseok grabbed my arm. Carefully of course.
- you need to stop running away. It's not going to solve anything.
Hongseok said, and sighed. He was right.

We walked to his dorm, and entered. I just stood in the hallway for a minute.
What if she just wanted me to come here, so that she could yell at me and.. hurt me like I hurt her..
but I didn't really have a choice. I had to talk to her.
- let's go to the kitchen.
Someone said, startling me. It was Seunghee.
-.. the kitchen?
I asked. Was she going to kill me with a kitchen knife?
- I'm hungry.
She said, and I almost laughed.

We went to the kitchen, and it was getting awkward. Seunghee was the first to say something.
- ask me for forgiveness.
She said.
- I am really sorry..
I said.
- no. I want you to ask me for forgiveness.
She said.
- please forgive me.
I said.
I realized I hadn't actually asked her to forgive me before now. Not that I had gotten a lot of chances to talk her..
- Ok. I forgive you.
Seunghee said, and started eating a bag of chips.
Was she joking? Or was that all she needed to hear? Would she really forgive me that easily?
- I'm confused.
I said, making Seunghee laugh.
- did you really think I hated you?
She asked.
- at least it felt like you did..
I answered.
- I can't hate my bestfriend.
She said.
- bestfriend?
I asked.
- bestfriends are for life, silly.
She said and grinned.
This was the Seunghee I had always known.
It felt so good being around her again. I felt so comfortable.
Seunghee suddenly hugged me, and made a funny noise.
We ended up talking for a while, about all that had happened the months I had stayed away.

- by the way...do you know where my pink bra is?

AN:
The bra hahaha you guys remember it right?