My notebook (Byler)

10.

   ****Mike's P.O.V****

  "I can't believe we lost Will!" I yelled at Dustin and Lucas. We were on our bikes and heading home. It was Max who noticed that Will was gone and Dustin who pushed past us and ran out into the parking lot, calling out for Will and Lucas who suggested a search party. We searched the park, his house , back at the arcade and around the block. I ran to "Castle byers" and became desperate after there was no sign of him but it was dark and I was already late. I really don't want to hear my mom yell and bringing it up each time I went out.
  "You caused this, Mike. If you had just let us all have fun, Will wouldn't have ran off" Lucas snapped.
  "My fault?! Why did Max have to be invited?! Why did she-"
   "No Mike. Don't pin this on Max! You started yelling and kept going till she pointed out Will was gone. What's up with you lately?! El is back but you're still acting the way you did when she was gone" Lucas stopped his bike, anger filled his eyes.
   "What do you mean?" I said as I stopped my bike and looked at him. Dustin stopped beside Lucas and looked between us. He didn't utter a word.
   "I mean your always angry! Always defensive. Anything someone says, you have to make it into a big deal. Now your overprotective of Will and treating Max like she's done something to you but really all she's doing is being there for Will. Unlike you." Lucas said. I opened my mouth but closed it.
  "See you tomorrow" I said quietly and biked home by myself.
  "That's two people who have told me that I haven't been there for Will. Have I really not been there for him?..No. we're not going home." I thought as I biked past my house and to Will's.
      9:45 p.m
  I dropped my bike and ran to Will's bedroom window. He was curled up in his blankets yet the light was still on. I knocked on the window, biting my lip. He moved a little so I knocked again. This time he turned around and sat up. His eyes locked with mine and for the first time, I thought how weird this must look.
   He quickly made his way to the window and opened it.
  "Get in. It's freezing" he said as he moved over. I struggled but soon got in and closed the window
   "Where the hell did you-" But will quickly interrupted me.
   "I'm gonna call your mom so she can pick you up" He turned around and headed to his door. I grabbed his wrist.
  "Will wait" My heart was in my throat. I could feel the heat rise up to my face as he looked at me.
   "Mike.. I really..I..." Will struggled for words. His eyes went to the floor. He was blushing.
   "Where did you go? I couldn't find you" I said as my hand left his wrist and placed it on the door behind him.
   "I don't want to talk to you, Mike. Not now. Maybe tomorrow" Will said. He was mad. He didn't have to sound like he was mad. After knowing him for so long, it was easy to tell his emotions.
   "Will I'm sorry. I really am.." he wouldn't look me in the eyes and that only made my heart pound harder against my chest. Will placed his hand on the door knob but made no movement to turn it.
   "I know I shouldn't have argued I just didn't want you with Max-" Will quickly interrupted again.
   "Why, Mike? Just because you don't get along with her doesn't mean I can't befriend her...Or do you like her? Mike I don't like her that way I-"
   "No! Will! I don't like her like that or like her in general I just don't like it that you all of a sudden show up at my house and get Max to yell at me for you then she just comes to the arcade with us and pretends everything is fine! You know you could have told me, right? Told me how you felt!"
   "So it's my fault now?! You don't even bother with anyone else but El!"
   "El has nothing to do with this!"
   "Wake up Mike! You've been treating everyone like shi- like..Just really bad okay! You treat me like a stranger! It's like you don't want me around you anymore and frankly I don't want to meet with the party tomorrow!"
   "You can't just cancel! The party needs you!"
   "But you don't need me in your life! You just want me around for the party!"
   "That's not true, Will! You know that's not true"
   "Why don't you invite Eleven?! I'm sure she'll be the perfect fit in my space since you obviously don't want me around anymore!"
   "SHUT UP!" I shouted. I looked at Will with pure hatred, my hand tightly on his shirt and our faces so close. I relaxed as I saw his fearful eyes and his grip on the door knob.
      "Oh god. Oh no" I thought as I let go of his shirt and moved my hand from the door.Guilt poured into me as quick as he looked at me.
   "I hate you, wheeler" he said and swung the door open only to bump right into Jonathan and Joyce. I was being stared at by joyce but then she was looking at Will who was clearly holding in his tears. There was nothing I could do to explain myself. I fucked up and all I could do was take jonathan's offer for a ride home and walk into my house. Mom yelled, I stood there. El was with hopper today and I knew she wanted to join tomorrow. I told her yes before all this happened but now i just didn't want tomorrow to happen. I wanted to shower and sleep. No. I wanted nothing more that Will to forgive me

    "I hate you, wheeler."
                   "I hate you"
    "I hate you"                  "I hate you"