My notebook (Byler)

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   ****Mike's P.O.V****
 

The four of us followed the ambulance to the hospital and inside though no matter how much we argued and screamed, we were forced to wait in the waiting room.
  I thought about the scene over and over again. My Will knew what he was doing. He knew what would happen with double the impact yet he still did it. I wanted to take it all back. I wanted to apologize and take everything back. I'd had to hurt him enough to have all of them as angry as they were. Well, Dustin more than anybody.
If was hard to piss off Dustin but when you did, you have to buy the guy roses  to forgive you. Well, maybe even that's not enough.

Max got an ice pack for her wrist and just some painkillers for the pain and mean while, Jonathan and Joyce came along, yelling for some information about her soon till they finally told her that he had to get some stitches and he'd be sleeping all day so absolutely no visitors unless related.
  "We'll be back, alright? Joyce said.
  "Please tell us how he is when you come back" Dustin said. Joyce nodded and walked off to Will's room.
  "I'm sorry. To all of you and I'll tell will that too-"
  "Why bother? You've already hurt him enough. If it couldn't be you it had to be your girlfriend to chase him away." Max said.
  "I DIDN'T-" I closed my eyes and relaxed. "I didn't want to hurt him purposefully. Yes I was being selfish, yes I regret every little thing but you have to believe me, I love him. As a bestfriend, as a brother as.." I stopped and looked at my hands "...I shouldn't have kissed him. I should of just broke it off with El and told him how I felt instead of playing him the way I did. Trust me, I thought about him all the time, I thought of my actions, I felt guilty and I wanted to tell him, talk to him, ask him how he was but I was pathetic. I just...I'm pathetic." I stopped, feeling myself give out and cry" A-and I'm really sorry for dragging you guys into this mess. I never wanted it to go this far. I never wanted anybody in the hospital! I didn't know! I-I didn't k-know!" I dug my face in my hands and felt my shoulders tremble.
  There was silence. Nobody would talk and my crying soon stopped.
  "I shouldn't be here. I'll only cause trouble." "I should stay here and show Will I really do care" "He'd hate to see me after all this. I should just go" "I can't be a pussy about this. I need to tell him I'm sorry and that I'll do anything for him" "I should just go" "but I need to stay"
   Turning to the window, I realized how dark it had gotten though my mom knew where I was so she wouldn't be too uptight about this. I sighed and got up. "I'll leave for his own good. It's not like he'll be up until tomorrow." I walked out the hospital and rode my bike home.

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I stayed in bed until noon. I ate then slide back under the covers. There was nothing to do but stay here and admit defeat. I had no one left but my bed so I thought to stay here.
A knock at the door snapped my eyes open but i shut them again till my door swung open. I groaned and put the covers over my head.
  "Get up, Jerk." Nancy pushed me slightly with her foot.
"Will's awake. Come on. Jonathan called and he said-"
  "I don't care! Leave me alone." I interrupted. Silence roamed around the room for a while before the door shut. I relaxed, feeling my eyes tear.
"Get your.." Nancy dragged me out of bed and onto the floor "LITTLE ASS UP!" She got me on my stomach and began spanking me. I tried to wiggle free while I screamed.
  " WHY" Smack. "WOULD" Smack. "EVEN THINK" Smack. "YOU WOULD STAY IN BED AND LOATH IN YOUR SELF PITY YOU IGNORANT" Smack. "ASSHOLE!" Nancy yelled.
  "LEAVE ME ALONE!" I screamed and reached for something, Anything.
  " NOT UH! GET OVER HERE!" Smack. "ARE YOU GONNA VISIT WILL?!"
  "NOO!" I answered warning a smack.
"I SAID ARE YOU GONNA VISIT WILL!!??"
  A soft knock came at my bedroom door.
"Is everything alright in there?" Our mom asked.
"MOOOOM!!" I tried to yell, earning me another smack in my ass. It stung so bad!
  "WE'RE FINE!" Nancy yelled back just as agressive as she was before.
  "O-okay" we heard our mom make her way downstairs.
  "LEAVE ME ALONE, NANCY! WHY DO YOU WANT ME THERE SO BAD!?"
  "CAUSE I KNOW WHAT HAPPENED! ITS TIME TO OWN UP FOR YOUR MISTAKES!" I wiggled some more which only make nancy hit me 3 more times.
  "LEAVE ME ALONE! LET ME LOATH-" I tried to answer but immediately earned me yet another smack.
  "NANCY PLEASE!"
"NO! I WANT YOU DRESSED IN 10 MINUTES OR I'LL BE BACK! ILL SEE YOU DOWN THERE, GOT IT!" She got up, hand as red as my ass must be and aggressively opened my door then slammed it behind her. As her steps disappeared down the stairs, I took the advantage to quietly sob and grip onto myself before getting a hold of myself and dressing for the hospital.

  I slipped into a shirt I found and some black Jean's then slipped into a jacket before heading downstairs. My hands were clammy by the never ending scenarios that played then replayed in my head.
  I walked into the kitchen where I assumed Nancy would be. Instead I was met with the all to similar fire hair and a stern face.
  "What do you want?" I said all too quick which made my mom look at me angrily.
  "Mike! Be nice to our guest" She snapped as Max ate a cookie with a smirk.
  "No it's okay Mrs. Wheeler" she said with a fake smile and got up.
"Ready to go" She asked though I was still hesitant to even be near her.
  "Right. Let's go" She said after I didn't respond. Her behavior changed quickly once we arrived to the doorway. She put her arm up and slammed me against the wall.
"H-hey!!"
"Shut up, Mike! Just shut up. Nancy's waiting in the car with Jonathan, alright? Okay? Kay. If it were up to me, You wouldn't even be near Will you piece of shit. I can't believe you'd really think you could just dodge him by not even visiting him. As much as I hate to say this but he still very much loves you, Mike. Fuck sake why are you so stupid?! You don't ever see how he looks at you? The little blush he gets just by brushing you? You are so fucking oblivious! It makes me want to choke you. Owe it to him and I mean really owe it to him, Mike. You've put Will in way too much pain. Fuck up again. I dare you." She let go of me and slammed the door open before storming to the car.  I stood there a minute before walking to the car and sat beside next to her.
  "What the hell am I going to do with no money?" I thought.