The Man I Became... Because of You (Completed)

Reaffirmation

Pete

Is there such a thing as to be over sexed?

We have already gone at it four times and now I wake up wanting it again! What does that make me?! I have never thought of myself as thirsty. I mean sure, it has been three years. I have been candid about this with you readers about my dry spell. Still, I didn't expect to be so needy. It is just embarrassing...

Then I catch myself.

Why should it be? Ae is mine and I am his. Every part of him belongs to me and I would willingly service him. If I need him then why should I be embarrassed?

I thought I had already gotten over these feelings. It's even more annoying when I catch myself thinking like this and I have to deal with it. Ae does want me as much as I want him. In fact, sometimes I think Ae wants me more. 

I cover my face as thoughts of what we did flash in my head and shift as my body gets too excited. 

I try to tone it down because I ache right now. That place feels uncomfortable and there is a slight throb. Despite that my nipples are hard and I know Ae has given them more than enough attention. It is only my junior who is at half mast. He hasn't fully woken up yet but the feelings that are stirring inside me are getting him excited.

This night has been wonderful. After going wild in the beginning, we calmed down for a bit and talked then did it again. It had been fast then too but without that desperate edge from the beginning. Then Ae had drawn me a warm bath and lit scented candles. I could see that they were new right away. I knew right then that he got them for tonight. 

As I soaked in the tub he had changed the sheets then joined me. We washed each other but that soon wasn't enough and before I knew it, the bathroom was filled with my noises as Ae took care of me again. 

Why was he so fascinated with that part of my body? And to put his tongue there? It was a question I had always wanted to ask him but never could. Maybe one day I will work up the nerve. That might also be the day I do it to him. It is the one thing I have never done for Ae... besides that. I have no interests in doing that though.

I turn to stare at Ae who is sleeping with his back to me. It's so broad and strong and I want to stroke it. Instead I suck in a breath and fall back into the memories.

I remember when I first met Ae. I was saved by him and was immediately drawn to him. He appeared strong and fierce like a lion even though he was shorter than me. He spoke to me without care and it made me feel real. Like I was a person instead of 'that heir'.

I have always been catered and spoken to with care by persons outside my immediate family. they would treat me softly like I was breakable or like my feelings were so fragile that one wrong word would anger me or throw me into despair.  But not Ae. He would treat me sweetly but at the same time he looked at me and saw a man and he handled me accordingly. I loved that he pulled me around. I wanted him to manhandle me because it turned me on. I felt his respect whenever he asked me for consent. But most importantly, I felt his love every time he held me down and...

Blush.

I think that I need to go to the bathroom. As softly as I can, I roll over and slip off the covers. 

"Pete?" His voice calls me just as I am about to stand.

"Oh. Did I wake you? Sorry." I look back at him to see his head turned to me. He actually doesn't look that sleepy.

"No. I was already awake. Just resting." He turned and fully looked at me. His eyes focus on my face so he doesn't notice my condition.

Should I go to the bathroom still? I bite my lip unconsciously as I think it through. I wouldn't want him to if I was there to help him, to take care of him. I suck in a deep breath.