I'm Not Your Toy

What if I get Pregnant?

My head hurts and I feel like shit, so what's new? The last thing I remember is reading Lucy's pleading texts and then getting shit faced. But hey- at least I got an Uber home and set out a glass of water for myself. 

"Camila, it's already noon, how do we know she's not dead and rotting in there?" I hear the youngest Cabello ask. I guess I should probably rejoin the rest of the world again, so I throw on my biggest hoodie and flip the hood over my head before leaving my room.

"See Sof, she's still alive. Can you leave me alone now?" Camila takes one look at me, opens a bottle and hands me two aspirin. "Thank you." I say and take them with my last sip of water. 

"I hate to state the obvious here, but you really look like shit." She states with a laugh and sits on the couch with her laptop. "Yeah. Last night didn't go so well for me. Please never let me drink again."

"Do you want to talk about it?" I shake my head no, "Talking about it means I have to think about it, and thinking hurts too much."

"Okay, well I'll be here for a while. I have a lot of emails to reply to because I'm apparently a grown up that has to do grown up things now."  She jokes. "Oh, and just FYI, you owe me. You totally ruined my dream last night. I was just about to meet Beyonce, you bitch" Oh no. Was I too loud when I got home last night? "I'm so sorry, I don't even remember coming in last night." She laughs and goes back to her emails.

I check my phone and see that I still have missed texts from Lucy. I also have a missed text from Camila around 3:20 this morning? I read it and feel my face turn white. I texted her to pick me up at 3 in the morning??? How do I now remember this? What did I do? Oh no...

"I'm sorry, can I ask you a few things really fast?" I ask and she nods her head for me to continue. "I woke you up last night asking for you to drive me home?" Again, she nodded while her attention was still focused on the screen in front of her. "And you did it?" She laughed and nodded a third time. Why the hell didn't I just order an Uber? I get why I didn't walk, but that should've been my go-to option. Stupid Lauren... Wait, "Did I do anything stupid last night?" 

I narrow my eyes as she locks eyes with me and puts the laptop on the coffee table. The smirk on her face is evident and I try to prepare myself for what she's going to say. "Yeah, about that. You were kind of hooking up with some dude when I got there. You made me wait outside the bathroom until you were. Uh, you know. Ready to leave." I slowly pulled my hoodie over my whole face the whole time she was talking. I did NOT expect her to say that. I'm so grossed out by myself, I need a shower. "I- I'm. I'm sorry. I didn't know that happened. Do I go get something to make sure I didn't catch anything? This has never happened before. Holy shit, what if I get pregnant?" Her laughter interrupts me before I can get any farther in my thoughts. "Relax, I was kidding. I picked you up and brought you here, you pretty much went straight to bed and I dropped off the water for you." Wow, I guess drunk Lauren is much more irresponsible than I thought. At least I didn't actually hook up with a stranger.

"Fuck you. I swear my life flashed in front of my eyes when I thought I may get pregnant." Her eyebrow raises. "Scared to have kids, Jauregui?" I haven't truly thought about this in a while because Lucy was always adamant about never wanting kids. "I don't think I'm afraid to have kids eventually. I just don't think I'm ready yet. And I don't want to have a kid with a guy I don't remember hooking up with. How about you, Cabello? See any little shit machines in your future?" 

"I'm going to ignore the fact that you just said that last part. I think I'm good though. I pretty much raised Sofia, so I already have been through it all. I mean maybe one day if I settle down, get married, and become financially stable, but I don't know if I can accomplish all of that before my baby gates are shut down. Marriage sounds kind of scary." 

"I guess that's true, marriage does sound scary, but I'm sure you'll find somebody perfect for you and it won't seem as scary as it does now." 

"I don't think I can find somebody new. I think I've already met my soulmate and ruined my only chance with her." She says with a frown and her hesitation does not go unnoticed. "Camila," She interrupts me before I can say anything, thankfully, since I didn't know what I was going to say. "I know, don't worry about it. It didn't even cross my mind until last night when I picked you up. Only for a second before I remembered you were getting over a rough situation and drank way too much. It's just that... Well, you're apparently quite the charmer when you drink." My eyes widen at the revelation, what the hell did I say to her? "You just get really flirty, you know, calling me hot a ton. You said I was cute when we dated but I got hot since then." We both start laughing as my cheeks grow uncomfortably hot.

"Okay, that's enough for the stories from last night. I want to sit on the couch and watch movies all day, are you in?" She asks. Obviously I don't want anything to do with the outside world right now because any light is killing my head, so I have to agree. She scoots closer to me and reaches across my lap to reach the remote on my left, only to lose the stability she had with one arm and fell onto me. Well, lets just say my mind is going in so different directions right now.

What the hell are you doing to me, Cabello?

Boom I've got another one for you. My professor for management gave us the advice of becoming a 'crack manager', which is pretty much a crack dealer for your employees (there's more to it, but that's the important part). I feel like I'm doing that for you guys- YOU get some crack, and YOU get some crack, another story today!!! I also think my lack of sleep is catching up to me after rereading that, but I'm leaving that in because it initially sounded funny in my head.

I also forgot to title this the first time I published it, good job me... At least I have a scary title for you guys now ;)