since i've been loving you - that's 70s show <wattys 2019>

-twenty two

I've been really upset lately for no apparent reason. I think I'm going into one of my depressive episodes. I told myself it wouldn't stop me from functioning and taking to people but no. Kitty has let me stay home in my bed lately, away from the world. I know it doesn't help but it makes me feel better.

Usually one of my friends comes and tells me about the days. Like Donna skipped class drunk with Casey and Jackie kissed a cheese guy at work. Her and Michael are in a fued form it. But she's letting him kiss any girl to make up for it. Also, Donna has made it this long with Casey which surprises me.
***
It's been getting boring. Ive listened to most my records, read all my cosmo, and I miss my friends. I just don't want to get up. I don't want to leave my bed ever again.

Fez talked to me and told me about how him and Hyde decided to put fish in Kelso's hubcaps. That was funny.

Donna came and talked to me today. Casey broke up with her and Eric rejected her, which was very stupid of him. She also talked about how she missed her mom.
***
You know what? I'm going to school today. I'm done with all this laying in bed.

It was actually fine. I had fun, and I missed some faces. I really like Kelso now though knowing he's in a bit of a fued with Jackie. But I know they'll end up together.

I got home and laid my head on my bed, crying my eyes out. Don't ask me why. I went to my bathroom, looking at my split ended hair with blonde roots coming back, the scissors and another box dye.

My hair was now halfway up my neck, darker than before. I kind of digged it. I knew what else I needed to do. Get the hell out of Point Place for the summer.
***
I went to Donna's house with a packed bag and knocked quickly, trying to tell her about my stealthy plan. She was totally in. We decided to catch the next bus so she packed and we started to run.

We got all the way to the hub before we saw our favorite Kelso, Michael. Donna told him about the plan and we headed on out to California.
***
It was a fun ride to begin, we were scream singing the words to our favorite songs and nobody could stop us.

By the second hour Donna fell asleep in the back row and I had to be Kelso's co-pilot. He kept trying to touch my boob, but I'd hit his hand away.

"What will it take to you to stop?" I said.
"Let me do it and kiss me." He replied. Me being me with my huge crush on him, I bit my lip and kissed him while we drove, though it meant nothing. And he ended up touching it.

The next hour I swapped spots with Donna so I could sleep, she swapped with Kelso and drove.
"Why does this car smell like fish?" Donna said.
"Hyde and Fez put fish in the hubcaps." I said in my sleep.

Donna drove for a couple hours, and Kelso was asleep in the back. Me and Donna got to talk. I hope he wasn't awake if so he'd make fun of us.
***
By this time, it was late so we drove to a near hotel to sleep at. Donna removed the fish so it wouldn't smell, and I finally got to take a shower. It felt nice on my skin until I heard the door open. I saw a mop headed boy thinking he was sneaky.

"Kelso get out!" I said peaking my head over the curtain.
"Fine! Damn Rose!" He said.
When I finished I changed and hung back up the towels. I sat on the far bed, planning out our day to Donna who was in the other bed. Kelso went to the bathroom.

"If it's 10:45 now, we should wake up at 7:00 tomorrow, and get on the road before 8:00." I told her.
"Sounds good." She said.
"I'm okay with that." Kelso said from the shower.

When he finished, Donna moved to the bed with me so Kelso could sleep on the little cot.

"Sorry Big D, move. I want some quality Rosie time." He said. She rolled her eye, and gave me a 'ooo he like you' look and turned off the lights.
***
Once she was asleep, us two were acting like little kids, silently giggling and just talking. There is a faint light on from outside so I could see his beautiful face. I bit my lip, looking from his eyes to his lips back up.

"Rose..."
"What?"
"I saw you."
"Saw what."

And next thing I know, he smashed his lips onto mine, they connected, moving in motion. His hands cupped my face as my arms hung around with neck.

This felt too good to be true. I loved him, but I felt like a rebound. I pulled back.
"What the hell Aubrey?"
"Not yet."
"Well damn!"

I decided it wouldn't hurt to go to sleep. I felt a pair of arms surround me as I drifted to sleep, grinning a grin.
***
We woke up 7am, rambling for our things, and getting into the car by 7:25. Go us. We somewhat hauled ass there but we didn't speed.

By 2, we had made it to a little house, Midge's house. She was letting us stay with her for the summer. Though she had a room dedicated for Donna so I had to bunk with Kelso, it wouldn't be so bad. Maybe this summer Kelso and I can have some romance, it'd be nice. How I was ready to have the summer of my life.