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Chapter 1

Hi everyone, this book will be about insecurity of a teenager. First of all I wanna say that this book is not based on my own experiences or personality, it's really just an interesting subject to base my book on. Hopefully you'll all enjoy it!
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It was a normal Monday early morning in my house, quiet, the whole family was asleep except for me, I was fully awake because I was way too excited to sleep because tommorow is my birthday!! "I have to sleep now, it's 3am....." I thought in my head, silently I listened to the soft breathing of my little sister with who I shared a room. My family is pretty big so most of us have to share a room. Mom slowly opened the door of our room and I began to sit up straight with a big smile on my face, 'what are you doing up?' She asked. 'Sshht' and I pointed to Sady who was deeply asleep. 'I can't sleep because I'm a big ten year old now' I whispered to mom, she understood, she knows how important birthdays are for me. 'I know what helps you sleep, let's think of all the cool presents you're gonna get' mom said to me. 'That's a good idea' I said.

Five years later I'm just laying in my bed listening to Sady who's softly snoring. Tommorow is my  15th birthday, I'm thinking of mom going to check on me if I was still awake but she wasn't gonna check.... About 2 years ago mom had this new job that makes her travel a lot so she's barely home anymore and if she's home she's not gonna check if her 15 year old daugther is asleep. "Mom needs to work tomorrow, your birthday isn't important enough to stay home for." That thought kept spooking around in my head. I turned around again in my bed and then the thought came in my head of mom saying I should think of all the presents I was gonna get, but that won't help.... "You don't deserve presents, you're not good enough." I closed my eyes, I hate myself, why can't I just be normal?!