My self image

Chapter 18

After school was done I didn't feel like going to the gym also but Ana kept telling me to go so I went anyway. I did workouts for about two hours and after I was done I had a good hour left before I needed to be home. I decided to visit Liv even though I didn't really want to go to that dirty, smelly apartment where complete strangers sleep on the couch. I walk to the main entrance and press the bel. 'What?' A voice asks, I think it's Liv's mom. I'm here to see Liv if that's okay.' I say nicely. 'Well I didn't exactly expect company but alright just wait.' Liv's mom says. I do what she says and wait, I heard other things going on there too when the she was talking, I thought I heard crying. Well it might have been my imagination. After about five minutes the door of the building opens, I walk in while holding my breath, that building smells terrible.

I knock on their apartment door, Liv's mom opens. 'Well hello there, I didn't expect you to come again, anyways come in.' She says. I walk in and Liv was sitting on the couch, when she saw me she immediately grabbed my arm and took me to her room. 'You didn't tell that you would come.' Liv says, she doesn't look glad that I'm here. 'I wanted to see you, you haven't been at school for the past two days, I was wondering if you were sick.' I try to look her in the eyes but she looks away. 'I- I'm fine.....' She mumbles, I then notice she has a big bruise on her arm. I look at the rest of her and then also noticed that her eye is a little bruised too. 'Your eye....Wha- what happened?' I sound just like mom when she's worried. 'I ran into a door......' She looks away when she says it but I want to believe her. 'Okay well I'm sorry I that I didn't say that I would come over.' I say. 'It's fine I guess, I'm just not used to it.' She says. We chat for a bit and then she showed some of her drawings since I asked her to. She holds one up that she's most proud of. 'This is just a fairy I drew but I guess it worked out okay.' I like drawings of fairy's, angels, dragons and actually all fantasy things. Liv accidentally dropped the drawing and bends over to grab it, I got shocked when I could see her lower back, it was completely bruise and I think I actually saw finger prints. She looks at me and I notice I got my mouth wide open. 'You didn't ran into a door.' I whisper. 'Your- your back, arm, eye.... I....what happened?' I stare at her until she answers. 'I....get beating up......you cannot tell anyone about it.' She whispers really soft and her voice is shaking. Before I can answer she grabs a tiny notebook and puts it in my gym bag. 'You have to go, now.' She whispers in my ear. 'You can't tell anyone, promise me.' Her voice shakes like she's about to cry. 'I won't, I promise.

I'm sitting at my bureau, Liv put a notebook in my bag but I she didn't say what it's about. I stare at it, somehow I haven't dared to open it. "Open it you baby! Why not? She gave it right? Just read but make sure that obnoxious Sady doesn't see it." Ana tells me. I open it, "diary of Alivia Tyler" it says. I read the first page carefully, she wrote about how her mom takes pills which make her aggressive at one moment and totally turns off her feelings at the other. At the next page I read how she has the worst fights with her mom who'll always wind up with her mom slapping her, sometimes just once or twice, sometimes five or six times, sometimes she even slaps untill Liv almost passes out. I read the first pages with my mouth wide open, even more when I read she sometimes even gets sexually abused by some of those boyfriends of her mom. I can't even process this all......