My self image

Chapter 27

'You did not!' I yelled at Mona giggling, Mona laughs so hard at her own story. 'Yes it's true, I did, and he didn't even notice!' Mona says. 'No way!' I laugh at her, we both are laughing so hard. Logan walks in and notices how we can't stop giggling and laughing. 'What's so funny?' He asks. 'Oh nothing, just Mona telling how she once gave herself a haircut during class.' I tell Logan, I tried telling it without giggling, luckily I could. 'Wow.....rebel...' Logan says sarcastically. 'Here's the newspaper you wanted.' Logan hands Mona the paper. 'Oh no.... that poor girl...' Mona says while reading. 'Who? Which girl?' I ask. 'The girl that's been in the news for the past days, her mom just got send to prison while she's staying at a foster home.' She tells me. That must be Liv who's been in the news.... 'I know that girl, she was my friend I guess.' I tell Mona. 'Really? You must feel terrible for her.... wait.... her name is Alivia something right?' She asks me. 'Yes, Alivia Tyler.' I say. 'I think I know her brother, do you know Stephen Tyler?' She asks. 'No, she was very secretive about him because their mom kicked him out the house.' I tell Mona. 'Yeah.... I think he's told me that before.' I got surprised by the fact that we both knew one of the Tylers.

As Mona and I talked she told me that Liv's brother got kicked out for being gay. I couldn't believe when she told me that, how can you abandon your own family for having a different sexuality? Unbelievable! Then the question started to pop up: did Liv know the reason? Did she agree? Could she have done something to protect him? All the questions.... If she didn't know I think she has a right to know. If she did know then I would never want to speak to her again. Why does everything have to be so complicated? 'Are you still thinking of Stephen?' Mona asks me. I shrug my shoulders while staring at the floor. 'Don't worry about him, he's a big boy, he has his own apartment and he's doing an online college program.' She tells me. How does Mona know all this? Is it true? Or is she lying? 'How do you know all that?' I look suspiciously at her. 'Didn't I tell you I knew him personally?' Mona smiles at me. 'Yes but still.' I find it hard to believe. 'We're friends Lil, we still are, He's 23 years old you know.' Mona says. He is 23?! Mona is 25, so he really is a grown up already....he surely doesn't need his mother anymore then. Well I'm just glad that he's alright.

After two hours of thinking I decided to text Liv and see if she'd respond. 'Hi.' I text her. I turned my phone off since I didn't want to check every second if she already texted back. I saw a piece of paper laying on the corner of the table, it was addressed to Mona. Since I was super bored I went to the table to look at what it said. ¨Thank you¨ it said, it was from mom and dad to Mona, a thank you letter? ¨We want to thank you for helping and taking care of Lilian, when she first came here she was almost completely possessed by anorexia or Ana as you call it.¨ I got shocked, how do they know about Ana?! Ana....ana-anorexia....god.....possessed?....did I? I sat down on my bed and I felt completely overwhelmed. Of course..... Ana didn't just appear out of nowhere, I made her....me....and after I made her I almost became her.... I grabbed the letter again and started reading more. There's a paper underneath from Mona. ¨Ana at first seems like the perfect solution, but in fact Ana just wants to kill you. She aims for a type of perfection that is humanly impossible to get, so if you keep listening to her you'll end up dying. I'm glad it didn't come that far with Lilian, she is becoming a good eater again and of course she's becoming her fun self again.¨ I felt so grateful for Mona, more then just a friend she helped me get rid off Ana.