"Fake friends" "fake friends" "Riley doesn't like you" "Riley is avoiding you" "you're worthless" "go to hell" "have you just become fatter today? Ehw!" "why are you still here" "you look like an alien, that's how ugly you are" "Your family would be better off without you" "why don't you jus- I open my eyes, I'm covered in sweat again, Pellie is laying next to me, thank god she's still asleep. I carefully get out of bed without waking her up. I walk to the bathroom and lock the door. I'm looking in the mirror and I see myself looking like a ghost, a fat, ugly, dumb ghost who's skin is so white and unhealthy looking, I have walls underneath my eyes and I'm actually starting to feel sick, sick of myself.
I'm in my room sitting behind my desk drawing some doodles, I pretended to be nauseous so I could skip dinner and be totally on my own in my room with no one around. While I'm drawing I'm thinking of the nightmare I had, was it a coincidence that this was now the second time I had this nightmare or would this happen again and again..... I decided not to think about it too much so I won't build it up in my head. After I was done drawing I grabbed my phone and opened Instagram. The very first thing I saw was a picture of Katie, Francis, Mckenzie, Maggie and some other girls but not only that, Riley was in there too! I couldn't help feeling so incredibly jealous of them and I thought Riley didn't hang out with Katie and Francis anymore. "Fake friends!!" Again the voice said it, I hope this all will be better tomorrow.
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My self image
Non-FictionLilian is a 15 year old girl who's never thought of herself in a positive way. Her bestie (Riley) does always protect her whenever she can. But that doesn't matter when you're getting influenced by Ana......
