Merle's hidden Daughter

Start of our fall

I had this feeling, I knew I wouldn't live much longer. I was gonna die soon, and I was ready to give up. Yeah I sound selfish, but who cares about me? Who do I have to love?

" Rick" I whisper looking up at our leader. " your talking again" he smiles. My face stays blank, " I have to tell you something." I sigh. " sure c'mon" we walk to the watch tower. " what did you want to tell me?" He smiles.

" Rick you know how you get a feeling like something's gonna go wrong?" I stare ahead. " yeah" he sighs. " I'll get to it, I'm gonna die. My dream told me, when the governor comes back he's gonna kill me. He's gonna make all of you watch-" he cut me off.

" DON'T EVER FUCKING SAY THAT" he screams. I look up at him with tears streaming down my face, " Rick it's true, I know it. I can feel it, I-I just wanted to let you know and that I accept my death" I look down. He grabs me and makes me stand.

" don't you ever say you want to die" he snaps. " I didn't say I want to die. I said I was ready and I'm ok with it. I made myself a job that day you guys came back without my brother. The second time. That I would live to keep everyone safe. The day Sophia left, and Carl getting shot. I-I knew I sucked. When we came here, Lori, my dad, uncle Daryl. You. I lost everyone" I look down.

" you didn't lose me" he slumps next to me. " Rick, your cold and mean now. You barley talk to Carl. Losing Lori, I know it's hard. I loved her to, but losing she made you lose it. Me losing all my family I'm gone. Who's here for me?" I glance at him then look at the walkers. " me. I'm here. Carl's here. Glen, Maggie, Hershel, Beth everyone in there is here for you" he states.

" Rick-" I pause laying down. "-you can just make this better and say ok" I mumble. " lets go" he grabs me and drags me into the prison. " she isn't aloud alone. Hershel follow me" Rick sighs. We walk into a cell, and they lock me in. " so this is your big idea. Lock me in a cell, I'm trying to kill myself. Lock me up in here to die of lack of light?" I sigh. " she's right Rick, she needs sun and to move around. I get your scared but she needs to find herself" Hershel sighs.

" I'm not letting her out of my sight" Rick snaps. " so your gonna abandon being the leader to follow me around? Rick your being stupid. If I wanted to leave I would tell you." I shake my head. " I don't trust you anymore" his words stab me. " y-you don t-trust me anymore" I look up at him.

" no, I probably won't" he snaps and leaves. Tears fall down my face as I stare at the wall. No emotion on my face, I haven't eaten for a day. I'm done, what's left if Rick doesn't care?

THE GOVERNOR. He trusts me. Ill sneak out tonight.