Three sided square (editing/revision period)

my (parents) van

[observation]

It was Homecoming day afternoon and Lucas had stopped to get gas and snacks since Mark was planning on sleeping over that night. The shorter two went into the station while Lucas stayed by the car. Mark browsed the chip selection with a heavy expression on his face.
"We should take a break." He finally said, picking up an expired bag. He immediately put it back down and grimaced, mainly at the expression on Haechan's face.
"What? Why what did I do?"
"You didn't do anything, it's my fault."
"You're doing this now? Here-in a fucking gas station? What the hell did I do wrong?" Haechan saw his vision blur and he wiped a tear from his eye.
"Nothing! I swear it wasn't your fault. I just- it's difficult for me too...I just really need to focus on school right now."
"You've literally never been focused on anything other than school!" Haechan threw his hands up in frustration. "Tell me the truth. Is it a reputation thing?" Mark hesitantly nodded. "You're an asshole. I'm not talking to you for the rest of the night- no! For the rest of my fucking life. The fact that you decided to do this right now disgusts me. You knew how important this night was to me." He bit the inside of his cheek to prevent himself from crying more.
"I knew that if I didn't do it now...I'd never do it." Mark couldn't look him in the eye.
"Whatever, Mark."
"Donghyuck-"
"I'll be in the car." He waved him off and stomped back to the car with his fist clenched.

L.JN

The atmosphere in the house became cold. My mom and dad were out of town trying to figure out what happened to Jaehyun so they had been temporarily replaced by Taeyong and Doyoung. It felt weird being the only living thing in the house. It had been about a week and Jaehyun still hadn't been fixed. Things were looking pretty shit for us but at least it wasn't me for once.

It didn't feel nice going to Homecoming without seeing my parents hype me up. Sure it was fun seeing Renjun and Jaemin in suits, looking fresh as fuck, but it wasn't the same. I miss my parents. Doyoung and Taeyong did their best but they weren't people. Their emotions were different. Maybe I just need to think less. I'd rather become a robot and not be so painfully aware of my own feelings.

Lucas pulling up in his parents SUV with Mark and Donghyuck pulled me out of my thoughts. Jaemin and Renjun said goodbye to the others while I just shuffled into the car. Donghyuck noticed I wasn't really myself right away and gave me a pity smile. His eyes looked a little red.
"You okay?" He asked.
"Just tired. I'm sure I'll feel better once we get to the dance though. You?" I asked him. He forced a smile and Lucas did a headcount before zooming around the corner. Long story short, Lucas shouldn't be allowed to drive.

The loud music just gave me a headache. I sat next to a pile of heels and sipped on an icy water bottle. Every couple of minutes a girl would come by and dump off her shoes. While Haechan had disappeared, Jaemin was out on the dance floor with the cool kids and Renjun sat with me. I leaned my head on his shoulder as we gazed at the conglomerate of bouncing people.
"Are you okay?" Renjun asked.
"I miss my parents. Sure I can just text or call but they never respond. It wasn't perfect but I miss my shitty lil family." I shrugged and brought my knees up to my chest.
"I'm sorry Jen." He draped an arm over my shoulders and I picked at my sleeve.

Jaemin trotted over a little later, still bouncing his shoulders, and grabbed my hand and Renjun's hand in his own.
"C'mon in boys, the water is cold."
"You don't want the water to be cold."
"It's 127°C in this world so the water is cold compared to the surrounding air. Are you gonna dip your toes in or what?" Jaemin rolled his glassy eyes. I just shook my head and got lost in the energy of the crowd.

"Alright students, it's time to get ready to go so please get notify your ride."

Students booed and trudged outside. I was trapped in the sweaty mass of teenagers and couldn't find anyone I knew so I kept walking. I made a right as everyone else went towards the parking lot and spotted Donghyuck straddling someone on a bench. I assumed it was Mark because, what reason would I have to believe it was anyone else, and walked up to him.
"Hyuck, quit thotting around we gotta-" he turned around and looked at me with puffy eyes. He wasn't on top of Mark though. It was just some random Senior. Rocky I think?
"Is t-the dance over?" I nodded at him and he got off of Rocky. "Thanks Rocky." He kissed him one last time before wiping his eyes.

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Petty

We really just gonna gloss over that like that didn't happen?

•nothing happened

I THOUGHT MARK WAS YOUR BOYFRIEND???

•he's nothing

What happened?

•I don't want to talk about it

Do you even like Rocky???
Did you even know his name before today????
Are you okay?????

•don't talk to me right now Jen
•I don't want to say something stupid

Fine
We have to talk about this eventually though

Hyuck and I texted while Lucas, Jaemin, And Renjun talked about whatever. I couldn't stop thinking for a second to enjoy myself. I just wish things were different. I wish I understood what the fuck was happening for once in my life.

Mark was quiet and didn't laugh almost at all which was strange. I didn't want to get into it though. I just thanked Lucas for the ride and said goodbye. My brain felt foggy from all the confusion and I laid down on the couch. I heard Doyoung and Taeyong asking a bunch of questions about the dance as if they were parents and I slowly drifted off to sleep. I wish things weren't so complicated all the time. I felt like I knew what I was doing at one point. I probably didn't though.

(This bitch was a mess!)
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