Sighs [K.TH]

Anxiety

"College starts from tomorrow, you will be there right?" I absentmindedly asked, my voice coming out a little sad, as I drunkly walked around the snowy alleys with her, my hands shoved deep in my pockets, and my head hung low.

I noticed her nod from my peripheral vision, so I bit back a smile of relief.

We walked slowly in comfortable silence, making her way to her home, together for I was being a gentleman by accompanying her.

I still had my vision on the ground, my eyes digging holes onto my steps on the thick snow, when suddenly I felt a sudden chill run down my spine.

And no, I was sure it wasn't the harsh winter breeze.

It was worse.

Like a nightmare, that made your heart go berserk.

I slowly brought my head up, my tired eyes adjusting to the bright snow that covered us, until fixating itself on a certain something.

Or more like a certain someone.

Suddenly, my tired self gained so much of energy, the numbness I was feeling from not sleeping last night, washing away;

And filling in with a choking and suffocated sensation, as I suddenly seemed short on air. My droopy eyes now fully awake the more I stared at it.

The more I stared at you.

You, who walked towards me, from the opposite side, wearing an oversized parka, and sweatpants, and your infamous earphones plugged into your ears.

I acknowledged so many of your features in a split second, as I stood frozen there; on the middle of the road, as if the snow got me too.

And it wasn't because of you, whom I saw after so long in such unexpected situations, that made me feel such things.

It was the stare; you gave me.

It was the intense attention you were suddenly giving me.

You were looking at me.

Watching me.

Scanning me, like you were shamelessly judging me.

I suddenly felt so insecure and scared. The gaze you had on me, was so piercing and sharp.

It was nothing like the sweet and lovestruck gaze you have on everyone else, especially Jungkook.

It was so different, as if a hungry predator prying onto his prey, ready to devour it anytime.

Your stare was coldsome, colder than the weather, that I had goosebumps all over and I felt myself go stiff under it.

I stood there like a dumbass, with (Y/N) confusedly looking at me, wondering why I suddenly stopped.

But how could I tell her, just how immovable I had become under your overwhelming presence.

I wanted to tear away our locked eyes, but it was almost as if I was being forced to, and I couldn't. Like someone was forcibly holding my vision onto your figure.

As if reading my mind, you suddenly looked straight ahead as you passed me, and disappeared behind my back.

And just when you were no longer there, I breathed heavily, as if I had been holding my breath this whole time.

Frankly, the time that passed during this thick tension that you had just created, was actually incredibly short.

You spoke not a single word, not a single action. You had simply stared at me, yet it had taken such a toll on me.