Sighs [K.TH]

Insomniac

I didn't sleep last night.

My eyes bloodshot with tears.

My pillow soaking wet with it's stains.

Just the usual it was, these days.

My mind was flooded with memories of our time together.

You just never leave my mind, do you?

I wondered the same old question.

How can I be so stupid?

Why was I so blind and lovestruck to not see your facade you were putting up?

How reluctant you were in my arms. How you flinched, when I kissed your neck. How you grew stiff to my touches. How I was the one to always initiate.

I thought you were just shy.

All the moments we spent together, grew so important to me, I didn't want to accept anything other than my fantasy.

And so I ignored.

To all the signs you tried giving to me in those times, I only responded to those with a sigh.

A contented sigh.

I was so caught up in my delight to have you, I became blind.

I just realised, ever since I met you,

 I've frequently been sighing.

Signing out of satisfaction, love, sorrow, emptiness, regret-

Just everything.

You've made me sigh so much, that I've lost count now.

~It's been hard, but you make it harder~

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He's intentionally doing this,

THISBOIICRICRICRI-

I hate him.