Sighs [K.TH]

Hopeless

"Taehyung, what do you wanna do as a career?" You asked me in your silky tone.

"Singer. Us boys are gonna debut as an idol group." I happily told you.

"Really?..My brother was saying the same, but I thought he was just kidding.." you said in bewilderment.

"Well yeah, we are serious. Yoongi hyung, Namjoon hyung, Hoseok hyung are gonna be the rappers and the other four of us will be vocalists." I grinned.

You smiled.

"That's nice...but are you going to be one of them too?" you suddenly asked.

I frowned.

"Yeah...I'll be a vocalist. Why?"

You pursed your lips and looked down.

My heart sank, and you hadn't even said a thing.

Were you disappointed?

"Are you sure? Are you really planning to be a singer?" you timidly questioned me.

"I told you, yes.....Why..What's wrong?"

You sighed

My heart sank deeper.

"Look Taehyung, I don't know about others or why nobody is stopping you, but it's high time now-"

"High time?" I suspiciously asked.

You grimly looked at me,

 "Taehyung, the people around you, the boys, your music teacher, parents, love you so much...and they of course don't want to hurt you...and that's why maybe they aren't frank.."

"Aren't.....frank?" I asked, lostly.

You nodded, 

"But I'm your girlfriend, Taehyung. I'm your well-wisher.I want you to do good." You said, taking my hand in your warm ones.

I nodded in agreement. At that moment, I convinced myself that, only you were my well-wisher. I wanted to believe only you, no matter what you say.

"So Taehyung, I'm going to be frank. Please don't hate me..." you said, before taking in a breath.

I quickly nodded, my forehead creased with anxiety.

"Taehyung....your not a good singer." you monotonously said.

My heart clenched and maybe, my face had lost it's colour.

"When your singing...It feels like..Your growling..." you added blankly.

My breath hitched at your remark. I wanted to scream, I wanted to cry, I wanted to prove you so wrong.

But I simply kept quiet.

"Taehyung...I know it hurts. But today it's just me whose saying this. But in the future, it will be everyone. Everyone loving the others, but hating you." You explained.

I solemnly nodded.

"I'm sorry." You apologised.

I shook my head, and tried giving a smile as an 'it's fine'.

"Ah..Taehyung..I gotta take this call..I'll be back."

I nodded as you left.

You left. You left after breaking all my dreams and hopes.

And you called this 'being frank'.

Maybe you were, maybe you really were caring for me.

But of all the people, you were the last person I imagined would tell me this.

I wanted to make you proud, I wanted to be a guy you could proudly say was yours.

But you left me devoid of any dream now.

And all I did was cry and cradle myself to sleep.

Swearing to be a mile away from the mic. 

~Self loathe is all I feel~

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You know that time, where you are just so sad and tired of nothing as well as everything?

No?

Lucky.