Sighs [K.TH]

Tricked

I bit my lip, my hands noticeably shaking as I held the ringing phone with your caller ID flashed out.

My gaze diverted from the accept and decline options, for I was so puzzled as to what to choose.

But just like always, I let my heart win over.

Taking a huge gulp, I brought the device close to my ear, anticipating your voice from the other end.

"Hello?"

My breathing became a bit ragged, as I hoped you didn't notice that.

"Hey." I managed to make my voice seem firm.

"I need to talk to you. Can we meet?"

My breath hitched a bit at your sudden proposal. Not a 'how are you' or anything.

But a straight selfish meet up.

And it was almost like you were ordering me for this sudden favour.

What was going on in that toxic mind of yours?

How were you going to hurt me this time?

"Why?" My voice came out as a whisper, as I squeezed my phone in my sweaty grasp.

I'd expected some tempting answer, but instead, I heard you chuckle a bit.

"Friends don't have a reason to meet, do they?"

And with that, I felt silent.

"I'll send you the address of where to meet. I'll see you in 15 minutes."

You spat out and I could imagine you smirking.

My jaw clenched, as to how much you knew me.

Or no, I was frustrated with myself.

I was just to pathetic and disgusting when it comes to you, that I wanted to throw up.

And with that you hung up.

Not even a formal 'bye'.

I sighed.

Should I really go?

You didn't even wait for my answer.

For you know, that there was no chance of me denying to you.

.........

I panted heavily, as I stumbled onto the cafe you sent me, the bell at the entrance ringing in result.

Looking around a bit, I realised I was rather a bit early. So I harboured the nearby empty couch, soon before ordering a cup of coffee.

I gazed out the window, the snow hardly visible in the surroundings, indicating the farewell of this harsh winter.

And I sighed, as I was once again reminded of how time was passing in contrast to my love for you.

Do I still love you?

Or am I just hoping now?

Hoping that deep down, even just a bit, you were a person I fell in love with.

That maybe you returned those feelings, at some point, even just a fraction.

My thoughts were cut off when the waiter came in with my 3 order for coffee.

He seemed perplexed as he handed me my order, and why wouldn't he be.

It had already been an hour and a half, since I was waiting for you. The pink hues of dusk signalling a beautiful sunset and reminding me of my wastage of time.

But how does it matter anymore?

I've wasted 2 years of my life, revolving around you, so how does this pitiful hour matter?

And so, I brought this familiar taste of coffee to my mouth, it's bitterness reminding me of you.

.........

"I'm sorry, Sir, but we are about to close in a few minutes."

I brought my tired stare to the apologising waiter and lazily nodded, before grabbing my jacket and heading out in the cold night.

Pulling my phone out my pocket, my fingers lingered over your contact.

"Just 5 more minutes. I'm almost there."

That's what you had said a while back, but those minutes had turned to 3 hours, and all that I had got was your familiar absence.

I scoffed a bit, before finally deciding to give you one last call, probably to listen to your sickening chants of you being on the way.

But you finally said something different now,

And I wasn't sure if I liked it.

"Ah! You were still waiting? I'm so sorry, Taehyung, but something came up and I completely forgot about our meeting. I'm sorry for wasting your time. I'll talk later, bye."

And you hung up, not allowing me to speak a single word as the beeping sound produced by my phone filled my ears.

That sickeningly sweet voice you always seem to have around me, does something to me.

It makes blood rush through my veins.

It makes me want to scream my head off at your face.

But I know too well, that you will just smirk at me, and continue to mock me with that tone.

I know you too well, and you know that too.

In fact, we both know each too well and are aware of that fact.

And yet im the one suffering.

Isn't all of this....Unfair?

The way you keep tricking me, and I always knowingly fall for your trap?

Tell me, is there an end to this?

~You know you have lost, when despite knowing the cons, you choose to ignore~

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ai...And I know I uploaded this after almost a month, so I'll not be surprised if no one reads it anymore.

And I myself, don't have the motivation to continue this...

I don't know, should I continue it?