Periclum (old version)

Chapter 8

You know... that feeling? That eerie, creepy feeling you can get through your veins suddenly out of nowhere. It can be whether if you wake up or drives to the grocery store or even just standing still when that unwanted feeling can shot through you like a fired bullet.

It was not that the weather was the problem— if it starting to rain heavily suddenly one day when it has been quite a while since that happened or if you take a different way to school that makes your mode different. Nothing. You do everything right, the same morning routine you have done for years, but still, that feeling just hit you— out of nowhere.

Like something was wrong but not at the same time. It wasn't right but it wasn't wrong either. Something just felt... off or different. Like you suddenly forgot something or left something behind, but the problem was— you haven't. Everything was perfectly fine, you have everything with you but still, that feeling like you had forgotten something so important stayed like gum under your shoe. You couldn't shake it off.

Or something so big, huge actions that made you emotionally exhausted your brain couldn't wrap up the facts of what happened.

Like you were in shock.

And couldn't seem to get out of it.

Something wasn't right but it wasn't wrong.

What was that feeling called?

Emptiness?

Stress?

Anxiety?

No, no it wasn't that. It was that other feeling. That feeling no one couldn't explain in words— it was so hard, the feeling was there right in front of you but you couldn't explain it properly to make others understand.

And that was a problem.

Like half of your soul just disappeared from your body under that night you slept in your bed. You were fine when you laid down in bed but when you woke up something felt off, weird, empty.

It was so hard to explain that feeling because it didn't have a word for it and for people who didn't know what you were talking about just made it worse— as they thought you were weird explaining something that no one seemed to understand.

Do you get it?

Because Mia didn't.

She didn't understand that feeling when she woke up. She didn't understand why she suddenly felt off like she had forgotten something important or something wasn't right.

It lied heavily in her heart. It pained her. It just rained out of her heart. And she didn't remember why she felt that way.

Mia sat up in her bed, hands resting on the bed behind her back as she looked around her room. She was sure something felt off when she woke up. Like what day it was, but Mia knew what day it was or what she was going to do that day, but she knew what she was going to do.

So why was she feeling like she forgot something important?

It confused her. She looked on her phone if she mysteriously slept more than a day but she didn't. It was Monday like she thought. And it was school today like she knew it was.

Mia took a shaky deep breath as she was trying to calm herself down. It was probably stress or just her brain spooking with her. Nothing to be concerned about. Right?

The white cover fell off Mia's chest as she fully sat up on her bed. Her head was hurting and the memory of that booming music throbbed in her head. It almost felt like it didn't happen, what happened that day.