Pushed Around (Nathan Sykes)

Chapter 20

After having coffee with Lacey I was back at my apartment trying to work on a song for the movie that she's in. She gave me the basic rundown of the movie and I showed her a few ideas for songs that I had. She picked a couple out trying to explain what sense that they would maybe fit too. Though when I showed her one that really caught her eye she fell in love with it telling me I had to submit that one to the producers. I wasn't even done with it.

Now here I sit at my piano trying to write the rest of the song. I was almost done, but something didn't sound right. There was something missing and I couldn't figure out what it was. I was about to call Zedd as he said he would help me whenever I needed it and he really seemed to push my creative prosses, but there was a knock on my door. I looked at the time finding it was half past midnight, who would be here at this time?

Not caring to look through the peephole I opened the door to find a very unexpected guest. "Layla. Can we please talk?"

"Nathan?" I gasped, I didn't think he'd ever talk to me again, let alone show up on my doorstep at this hour of the night. "Come in," I said opening the door the rest of the way stepping out of the way. He seemed out of breath walking into my flat as he leaned against the wall. I closed the door going back to sitting at my piano, I wanted to hear what he had to say, but I wanted to get this song done and he wasn't going to stop me from finishing it.

"Layla, I'm so sorry." He finally said from where he was leaning against the wall. I play the melody to my song as he started walking over to me. "I'm sorry for being an asshole and saying what I said to you. I was hurt. I didn't mean it, I was just angry."

"Now you know exactly how I felt when you started dating Lacey. But I didn't text you acting like a complete prat! I understood the whole time, I still understand, because you talked to me about it. You didn't give me the chance Nathan." I snapped, I didn't mean too, but his excuses were bullshit.

"It all started because he wanted to do a song with me, then we went out to lunch like twice when we were working together, then the Livestream happened and he showed up early, so I let him sit and watch with me. I didn't want this to happen, Nathan. But anymore it feels like it was a set up from the second I met Zedd." I was tired of it already. I was ready to call it quits sometimes. Ending my career sounded better than having this constant headache, giving up on my dream felt like a better option. I shouldn't feel like that.

"I know Layla, I know. I was scared. I was scared that I was going to lose you. He was at your studio every damn day. It was constantly being rubbed into my face, I couldn't take it. I almost asked to move studios so I wouldn't see you two together every time you walked past mine." Nathan said now in tears. "I didn't want to believe that I was losing you." He fell to his knees holding his head in his hands sobbing into them.

"Oh, Nathan," I sighed falling to my knees next to him pulling him into my arms. "You aren't going to lose me, Nathan, that won't ever happen. No matter what, you're my best friend. No matter what, I will always love you." I ran my hands through his hair trying to calm him it seemed to be working.

I'd like to say we gave it a try
I'd like to blame it all on life
Maybe we just weren't right,
But that's a lie, that's a lie

"What song is that?" Nathan quietly asked looking up from his spot in my lap.

"Just something I've been working on. I'm hoping to show it to the producers of Lacey's movie." I said giving him a small smile.

"Can I hear the rest of it? I feel like I haven't heard you sing in forever." He asks sitting up. I silently nodded sitting at the piano. Nathan joined me as I rest my book so I could read my notes as I started to play.

I'd like to say we gave it a try
I'd like to blame it all on life
Maybe we just weren't right,
But that's a lie, that's a lieAnd we can deny it as much as we want
But in time our feelings will show

I looked over at Nathan who was looking over my lyrics and notes. I think he was trying to learn them. I smiled continuing.

'Cause sooner or later
We'll wonder why we gave up
The truth is everyone knowsAlmost, almost is never enough
So close to being in love
If I would have known that you wanted me
The way I wanted you
Then maybe we wouldn't be two worlds apart
But right here in each other's arms

Here we almost, we almost knew what love was

But almost is never enough

He easily took over the piano which I was thankful for, I made this one easy on the piano seeing as I'm still not the best at playing. But Nathan, being Nathan, took it to a whole other level. I was about to start the next verse when Nathan started singing.

If I could change the world overnight
There'd be no such thing as goodbye
You'll be standing right where you were
And we'd get the chance we deserve ohTry to deny it as much as you want
But in time our feelings will show

I looked at him in shock for a second before picking back up my vocals.

'Cause sooner or later
We'll wonder why we gave up
Truth is everyone knowsAlmost, almost is never enough (Is never enough, babe)
We were so close to being in love (So close)
If I would have known that you wanted me, the way I wanted you, babe
Then maybe we wouldn't be two worlds apart
But right here in each other's armsAnd we almost, we almost knew what love was
But almost is never enough

"You always have to write the most emotional songs don't you?" Nathan laughed pulling me into his arms.

"Someone has too." I smiled into his shoulder.

"I missed you." He says into my hair.

"I missed you too," I whisper back. I didn't want to let this moment go. 

We've had so many almosts. It feel's like they're never going to end. Almost really is never enough.