Love you more

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Faye:

Straight after the Strictly tour, Giovanni is off to practice for his dance show while me and the band are having a so-called band day. Means we're doing lots of cool stuff like going to the cinema or just going out for lunch together. As for today, we're all out for lunch; I invited them to one of the amazing pizza restaurants that Giovanni had showed me. 

I really like these band days. While dancing at Strictly we didn't saw each other and only talked on the phone, except for when they visited us in rehearsal. Of course Strictly was fun but I missed hanging out with the band; obviously we're not only meeting for singing stuff but often to simply spend some time together as friends. However after the show itself I was busy with dancing at the Strictly live tour. And Claire on the other hand was promoting her own album - which definitely includes very good songs. We're so proud of her, as we know what this album means to her.

But now we are able to enjoy a lovely band day. We talk a lot, about Strictly or about what else we've been up to. Yes, I'm sad about Strictly being done but that's because I simply loved it to dance there. And now Giovanni is at rehearsals for his dance show, alongside Luba and some other professional dancers - they aren't at Strictly.

"Where are you with your thoughts?" H jokes and I look around confused, realising that I wasn't listening to them. "Thinking of your dancer, I know."

"He's not my 'dancer' and you know that. He's my boyfriend." I reply amused, acting like I was completely focused on a song. "Besides, I was just thinking about the fact that he's at rehearsals now."

"It was just a joke." H laughs. "It's sweet to see you so loved up."

I grin at him, thanking the waiter as he walks over with our orders. As we enjoy our pizza, I notice they all constantly look at me; almost as if they want to say something - but as we're talking so much, I don't ask them about it. Probably they ask themselves if I miss dancing - or missing to dance with Giovanni on the show. It's a question to which the answer would definitely be 'Yes' athough I also enjoy to hang out with them. Besides, it's not like I'm not dancing with Giovanni at all; in fact, we often dance in our freetime.

"Can I ask you something?" Lee says after a while. We'd finished our meal in the meantime, have paid and are now walking through a park and back to our cars.

"Yes, sure." I answer. Maybe they want to tell me that they're annoyed with something I'd been doing during our conversation earlier, or they're annoyed with something I'd said. Or they aren't approving of Giovanni and-

"Have you read these articles?" Lee continues, interrupting my thoughts that way.

"What articles? Do you mean those which write that Giovanni is cheating on me?" I ask, already knowing all too well about these articles. Journalists think that because Giovannis is dancing with other women at his dance show, he would cheat on me. And yes I admit that I'm angry with the journalists for writing claims like these.

"No, not these articles." Claire explains.

"Would you please explain me what you mean then?" I ask. "Do you disagree with Giovanni being my boyfriend or something?"

"No!" Lisa answers loudly. She looks around, maybe she's searching for words.

"Travis is moving back to England." Claire finally says.

For a moment I just look at them in disbelief. What? Travis is moving back to England? Travis as in the guy who's my ex-boyfriend? This abusive man, who was so jealously believing in an affair between Lee and me, that he tried to kill me? After he was released from prison he moved to America, that's what I know about him. I feel the tears rolling down my cheeks, while it's barely audible what the others are saying. He moves back to England, I whisper just to myself, feeling a panic attack being about to happen. Your abusive ex moves back to England.