Love you more

Bridesmaid Duties

Giovanni:

Alongside Lee and H, I walk through the city while admiring the several shops that I didn't even knew about before. Admittedly, London offers quite a few shops for suits and all that stuff for a wedding - so I'm certain that we'll find something. I just never realised their existence before because I never thought about... getting married at all. Okay, fair enough I did thought about wanting to marry one day but I feel as if until I met Faye, I never felt the need to marry yet. But with her... I want to spend the rest of my life with her.

Through Lee and H - who secretly messaged Lisa and Claire - I know that Faye is okay. Don't get me wrong, I'm not stalking her but I'm just worried. Worried that she'll have a panic attack and I'm not here to comfort her, though the boys assured me that Lisa and Claire would do just as well at comforting her.

"You know, in the early band days but also during the reunion, Faye had a lot of panic attacks. Sometimes she even fainted because of them and I remember one occasion where we'd been in Florida to film 'After the love has gone' and one of the guys from the video shoot jokingly picked her up and all." Lee says as we walk through the city. "She freaked out completely. She was in such a state of panic that she was sick and we could barely calm her down. We went back to the hotel and for the rest of the day she was just in her room and sobbed. Claire was with her most of the time and comforted her."

As usual when hearing how badly she was struggling, I have to hold back my own tears. It just shows how you can never tell what goes on behind closed doors. I'm sure Faye loved being with the band and still loves it - but she knew that she'd come home to her abusive boyfriend. I just want to keep her safe at all costs.

"Hey, where are you with your thoughts?" H teases. Okay, now I know what the girls meant by him being quite a teaser. I mean, I spent time with the band previously but it's different to just go to a bar with them compared to going shopping with them. "You're thinking about your wife-to-be?"

"About the wedding, yes." I reply. "But boys, that besides the point. What are we going to do after our shopping trip?"

"Celebrating of course. Bet the girls enjoy their time abroad and all - and so should we. I reckon a trip to a bar, watching football and do all this stuff." H tells us chatty. "Or what do you think?"

"Sounds like a great idea." Lee replies. "Speaking of ideas, do you already fancy a certain suit?"

"Don't know yet. What do you think? I mean, you guys know Faye for quite a while know. What kind of suits does she likes?"

"Mate, you're not buying that suit for her to wear. She's choosing her wedding dress by herself too." H laughs. "But if you like to know, she isn't exactly fond of suits. She always made that face when we were told what to wear for shows - she still does in fact. Just decide on whatever suit you like best, okay?"

"Promise." I reply with a grin, being really glad about their support. As I said, they probably know more about Faye than I do. They know about her past relationship, about her insecurities and so do I - but I didn't know about her not liking suits for example. I also didn't know how fond of rock music she is until H teased her about it. So it's amazing that they can tell me their ideas so the wedding could be perfect.

"Look, that shop seems nice. I think I was there too when looking for my wedding suit." Lee says, smiling at the realisation. "Let's go there."

Lee definitely was correct with saying that the shop seems nice. The staff is very friendly, immediately asking us if we search for something certain. "I'm looking for a wedding dress." I explain.

"Suit." Lee corrects me, smiling at the language difficulties.

"Isn't that the same?" I ask with a frown.