Love you more

Talking

Faye:

We haven't called each other back after our discussion. In fact, Giovanni simply ignores me and so do I and we don't even see each other. He actually promised to come home before rehearsals and before the show would be performed in another city, but he just wrote me he wants to focus on rehearsals and whatever I want to think.

And I, on the other hand, hadn't even answered him. It's saddening to read how angry he is, but it's completely understandably. I was really not nice to him and he is definitely allowed to be this angry with me or about what I said. And I want to explain it to him, even if I don't know how.

After the phone call with Giovanni, I had been telling Lee everything and then sobbed to his shoulder until he managed to calm me down; assuring me that Giovanni loves me.

Today the band came over and obviously they notice how lost in my thoughts I am. I barely am talking to them and when they ask me if I already talked to Giovanni, I look away and don't answer them. I mean, I'm planning to call and talk to him, but what should I say? I accused him of cheating on me, of course he's angry and probably he will not even answer me if I call him.

I also thought about calling Ashley and asking her for her advice, as she knows about Giovanni and me and knows us in general, but actually she would say just what Claire or Lisa - or even the boys - said. I should simply call Giovanni and talk to him.

So now as I'm sitting in the garden with the band (they'd insisted to come over) I think about what to say to Giovanni, trying not to burst into tears.

"I know exactly what you're thinking about." Lisa says and interrupts my thoughts. Of course I told her and the others about my plan about calling Giovanni.

"What if he hates me for calling him a cheater?" I ask.

"He doesn't hate you." she answers. "Yes, it wasn't nice to talk to him like you did, but you were angry, you're confused because of Travis. And these stupid cheating claims about Gio and you obviously only add to that. If someone would write that my husband is cheating on me, I also would be angry and probably talk to him just like you did."

"Yes, but you-"

"No, listen" Claire interrupts me. "You call Giovanni now and you explain him about these articles that we told you about. He will understand, because he loves you. That's also what the others said."

"Oh, so you were talking about me?" I ask her.

She answers me slightly amused. "Yeah, because we discussed what we could do if you would ask us for advice. And our advice is that you call and talk to him now. Really, just talk to him. He knows about Travis, doesn't he? About what he did, I mean." she questions and I agree with a nod. "See, then he'll udnerstand why you acted the way you did. It's important that you talk to him."

"That's probably the advice I should follow. I will call him. Thank you."

"No problem." Lisa answers back.

I take my phone and start the call, waiting for Giovanni to answer, asking myself if he would actually even answer my call or if he would simply ignore me. "Hello?" Giovanni says and I shrug, stunned about the fact that he indeed answered.

"Hello." I reply him.

"What do you want?" he asks me, obviously annoyed. "Separating because you still think that I'm a cheater?"

I see, he's definitely angry with me. "No!" I say loudly. "Listen. I didn't intended to call you a cheater. I know that you're not like this and that the journalists just want to write about couples cheating because they think it's amusing. You are a wonderful person and I love you-"