Chapter 31 ~ last chapter

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Amanda's POV

It's been three days since the incident with Kerrie, and Jai kicking me out. Beaus been keeping me company, he's actually over right now.

"BEAU STOP I CANT BREATHE!" I screamed in between breathes because beau was currently sitting on me tickling me. I hate being tickled.

Beau finally got off of me after about ten more minutes of just laying on me.

"Douche bagel" I muttered.

"Did you just call me a douche bagel?" Beau laughed.

"Let's watch a movie." I suggested, Changing the subject.

Beau nodded and proceeded to get up and sit on my bed.

"What should we watch?" I asked throwing him a blanket.

"Stepbrothers!!" he screamed. No. I need to forget about him.

"Um can we watch something else?" I said shyly cuddling up next to Beau.

"Oh, right. Sure. Let's watch Titanic then." I nodded as beau got up to put in the movie.

"Beau get me food" I groaned. He groaned and then said,

"You have legs, get some yourself."

"Yeah but I'm also bleeding profusely from my baby maker, please?"

"Okay fine." he said. He came back a few minutes later with a huge bag of chocolate and a hot water bottle.

"This is why I love you!" I said taking the items and storing them next to me.

"Love you too." Beau said as he laid next to me on couch and giving my forehead a soft kiss. I blushed and turned to watch the movie.

Jai's POV

That should be me. That should be me watching a movie with her. That should be me taking care of her. That should be me telling her I love her! Not my bitch ass brother.

Yeah I've been watching them through my window, call me creepy. I don't give a flying flapjack.

I messed up big time. This is all my fault. I still love her and I think I always will..

Amanda's POV

"Amanda what's your favorite song?" Beau asked me when the movie ended.

"Uhmm Crash Test Dummy by Reed Deming, I guess." I shrugged putting my hair up in a messy bun.

"Will you sing it for me?" He asked hesitantly. "Jai said you have a really pretty voice." I cringed at that memory... Jai and I used to sing together all the time..

I started to tear up thinking about him.

Amanda be strong. Don't let him hold you back from things you love.

I got out of bed, wiped away the tears and sat at my keyboard which was in front of the window that looks into Luke and Jais room. Then I began playing.

*listen to it. It's a great song*

(crash test dummy, Reed Deming)

What if I stumble? What if I fall?

What if I'm the champion on the crawl?

What if I lied just to cover the truth?

And what if I waste all the days of my youth?

What if I cast all my dreams in the sea?

What if my greatest fear is me?

Where can I run to escape from myself?

Would you be there? Would you be there?

Cardiac arrest, heart pounding out of my chest.

Don't wanna become like a crash test dummy.

And If I let you down will you still want me around?

If I'm broken would you still love me?

What if I'm troubled? What if I'm flawed?

And what if they all just think I'm a fraud?

And what if I'm left without a choice?

And what if I like girls? What if boys?

And what if I listen to all that they say?

They promised forever and then walk away.

Where can I run to escape from myself?

Would you be there? Would you be there?

Cardiac arrest, heart pounding out of my chest.

Don't wanna become like a crash test dummy.

If I let you down will you still want me around?

If I'm broken would you still love me?

Oh would you still love me? (What if I'm broken, what if I'm broken? What if I'm Broken? What if I'm broken?)

Cardiac arrest, heart pounding out of my chest.

Don't wanna become like a crash test dummy.

If I let you down would you still want me around?

If I'm broken would you still love me?

Cardiac arrest, heart pounding out of my chest.

Don't wanna become like a crash test dummy.

And If I let you down would you still want me around?

If I'm broken would you still love me?

At this point I was beyond emotional. I heard my phone beep. Jai.

From: Jai </3

Yes, I would still love you.

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THE END !

I can't thank you guys enough for the support throughout the entire book. Thank you to everyone who read, commented, & voted. You put a smile on my face and inspired me to keep doing what I love, writing.

I'll post the intro to book 2 a little later.

It's going to be called 'What if I'm broken' so be sure to add that to your library when it comes out to see what happens with Amanda and Jai and if she really does have a twin!

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