Sayori is in love, that's the only explanation there can be to the way she feels about Monika, the most popular and beautiful girl in school.
Natsuki has a crush...or she's in love...she's not really sure but Yuri is all she can think about, she's...
Annie's words were circling in my mind ever since club. I curled up in a ball, my mom had taken my sisters to the movies and I pretended I wasn't home. No body would want me along with them anyway. I had my blankets around me clutching them tightly under my chin. Tears wouldn't stop flowing from my eyes, my head was pounding, like a convict trying to escape it's prison cell.
Birds chirping, they sound so happy outside my window, Cassie's little face when she dug into her first taste of sugar at her first birthday party, Natsuki, MC and I catching frogs as kids, picking flowers and bringing them to my mom and watching her smile, Monika's smile, Monika's laugh, Monika's eyes...
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Tearfully I clutch fistfuls of my hair, clenching my eyes shut as I sob dejectedly.
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I gasp reaching under my mattress I finger the thick rope that's hidden beneath it.
No one would be able to stop me....
I could do this and be free....
My mom won't be home for another two hours...
No one would find me until it was too late....
They'd all be free of me...
They'd all be happy without me....
They'd be better off without me....
*KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK*
I blink returning the rope to it's previous position. Had my mom locked herself out again? I slowly rose to my feet, grabbing my favorite blanket. They'd probably left the movie early because Cassie tended to be unable to sit down for long periods of time especially if the movie didn't interest her.
I stalked down the stairs slowly, my blanket wrapped around my shoulders.
*KNOCK KNOCK KNOCK*
It sounded more persistent, more frantic. I stopped at the front door. Slightly unsure...I mean I don't think my mom knocked like that. Hesitantly I put my hand on the doorknob. I unlocked the door and slid it open. "Sayori thank God, you didn't answer your phone when I called and then I wasn't sure if you were home or not...I was worried I guess." Monika exclaimed all in one breath and I frowned...I looked like hell, but I couldn't just slam the door in Monika's face. Now if it had been MC or Natsuki... I slowly stepped back and opened the door gesturing for her to come inside.
"I heard you weren't feeling well, so I brought you some soup." She held up a Tupperware container and I smiled at her slightly. Not feeling well...yeah okay ...
"You didn't have to do that for me though." I whisper blushing slightly as I led her to my kitchen. Monika sat it on the stove top and turned to look at me. "You've been crying." She didn't ask this she simply stated it. Her hands were clasped in front of her, Monika's face was drowned in concern.
"No, I'm fine." I murmur starting towards the living room, shutting the front door as I went. Monika fell in step behind me and I collapsed onto the couch sadly. Monika sat next to me, kicking off her shoes she sat with her legs crossed and turned facing me. I pulled the blanket around myself wishing to disappear.
"Sayori, it's okay to be sad..." Monika reached out and her warm hand circled around my cold hands. I met her kind green eyes and sniffed. "You don't have to pretend Monika...I know I'm just a burden to you." I whisper looking down at our clasped hands. "Sayori I'm offended that you think um not being genuine." Monika answered firmly and I looked up once more. "Sayori you're my friend, I mean that with everything in my whole body. Why would you think I'm anything but sincere?" She tilted her head looking at me with such conviction that it would be impossible to not believe her.
"It's nothing...I'm burdening you...keeping you from your family..." Tears are blurring my vision when Monika's hand leaves mine I die a little inside then before I can comprehend what's happening her hands are brushing tears from my face. "Don't call yourself a burden! You're my friend. My friends aren't burdens." Monika insisted sternly and I looked up at her in somewhat surprise.
"But look at you, you're popular, pretty and smart...then look at me..." I echoed some of Annie's words from earlier and shook my head. "Who told you that?" Monika bristled and I looked up in shock. "I don't-" Monika cups my face with her hands. "Sayori, something happened today, after you shared poems with Annie! So tell me right now what she said to you!"
