Glass Hearts (An Austin Carlile Story)

Irrational

I lay in my empty bed, dreading the thought of getting ready for the day. Austin had been on tour for four weeks now and all I wanted was for him to be back home.

I groaned as my snooze went off for the third time this morning. I decided it would probably be best to get up and get ready for work. I swiped my lock screen and turned off the alarm. The picture of Austin and I made me sink into deeper depression.

I went to my contacts and pressed his number, putting my phone to my ear. The phone rang a few times before he picked up. "Good morning beautiful."

The sound of his voice sent chills through my body. I had never missed him like this before. "I miss you," I whispered as tears began to stream from my eyes.

"I miss you too baby. I'll be home in two weeks. We're two thirds of the way through this. Hang in there beautiful."

"I want to come see you. I need to see you."

"Autumn I don't want you flying all the way to Europe right now. I would love nothing more than to see you right now but I don't want anything to happen."

"But my doctor said it would be fine."

I heard a loud sigh. "Babe please just hold on for two more weeks. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if something happened to you or Ella."

"You're right. I'm just being selfish. I hate being so emotional."

"I love you. You can be as emotional as you want."

"I love you too. How are the guys?"

"They're great. They all miss you too. Do you have work today?"

"Yeah... I'm supposed to be there in twenty minutes but I can't seem to get out of bed."

"Babe. Get out of bed and go to work. You need to get out of the house. I know you've been mopping around and you won't even hang out with Jamie. You have to stop that."

I groaned and rolled out of bed. "Okay, I'm out of bed."

"Now get dressed and go to work. Send me some snaps of our beautiful baby."

"Austin I'm huge. I don't want to send you pictures of how fat I am."

"Autumn. Pregnant. Not fat."

I sighed at myself in my full length mirror. "I love you."

"I love you too. Text me when you get out of work and we can possibly skype. I'll stay up and wait for you."

I reluctantly hung up the phone and began searching through my clothes for something to wear. I pulled on a pair of jeans and a plain black shirt before going to the bathroom to quickly sort myself out.

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"You look like shit," Jamie expressed as I walked over to my station.

"Well it's nice to see you too," I mumbled setting my things down.

"Do you know if I have any clients today?"

"I'm pretty sure you are booked solid. All of your clients miss you. You have to stop canceling appointments."

I nodded and gave her a forced smile. "I'll try my best."

She came over to me and hugged me tightly. "I know you miss him but he'll be home soon."

I hugged her back awkwardly. My growing stomach was pressed uncomfortably against her bony ribs.

"Your ribs are killing my stomach."

She pulled away and laughed as she rubbed my belly. "You're getting so big! How far along are you now?"

"I'll be twenty six weeks tomorrow."