"Y-you love me?" My voice sounding raspy. Ashton was still beside me, running his thumb over the back of my hand., his eyes never leaving mine.
"I have ever since that party." He chuckled. "I thought it was going to be a one night stand, but I guess I forgot to leave out the feelings." he kissed my knuckles, making me blush.
"How do you know you love me?" I asked him. "I mean, we haven't even known each other for 4 days. I don't count the party because i didn't properly meet you until Friday."
"The feelings were always there." he started. "I knew I had feelings for someone, I just couldn't remember your beautiful name."
"You don't love me. It's just puppy love, Ash." I say. "You'll be over it soon." I'm still holding his hand. He looked disappointed, his eyes leaving mine.
"Oh." he quietly spoke. It's not that I don't believe in love, it's just...scary. And when someone says they love me, it's hard to believe them. My parents told me they loved me, but they left me. Luke told me he loved me and i was his other half, before he left for two years, leaving me like every one else. I've said the 'L' word once too early, then all I ended up with was a broken heart. Im scared that if someone says they love me, ill say it back and mean it, while they are lying. And all I need is honesty.
"Im sorry, Ash." I say, running my thumb over his hand. "Just... please don't say you love me, cause I might not say it back." I tell him, giving him a sentimental look. He looked up at me and stayed quiet."Okay?" I gave him a weak smile.
"Okay." he whispered. He stayed quiet for a bit, before we both heard a knock on the door. "Come in." he called out. The door opened and in walked my other half, a stuffed moose in her hands.
"Hi meese, I brought you a moose!" she said, a small smile on her face. She saw me awake, then ran to my bed, wrapping her arms around me. I do the same, my eyes started tearing up. "Amy, please don't scare me like that again!" she sobbed. "Im sorry i let this happen! I wish I would've helped you through it instead of letting it happen! This is all my fault! Im so so sorry for letting all of this happen!" she cried in the crook of my neck. I rubbed her back soothingly, trying to calm her down.
"Katie. None of this is your fault. It was just me being an idiot, thinking it helped and it was a release, but instead I ended up here." I sobbed into her hair. I look over her shoulders to spot two girls, one with fury red hair, the other with lilac. I pulled away from Katie. I waved them over, Meghan was the first one over. She wrapped her arms around me, I got some of her red hair in my mouth. I spit it out and chuckled.
"Im sorry this happened." Meghan said, pulling away.
"It's not your fault, it's mine." I said, then Becca came over, her arms around my neck.
"We shouldn't have let this happen, Amy. Were sorry for letting it happen." She started sobbing.
"Oh shut up! Stop apologizing! None of this is your guys fault!"I spoke loudly at them. I wanted to scream. Just then, Luke, Calum and Michael walk in. They walked over and each one pulled me into a hug, Luke was the last one to walk over. He had Aiden in his arms.
"Mommy!" Aiden cried, sounding as if he was about to cry.
"Oh, baby." I spoke, reaching out for my little boy. Luke handed him over and I grabbed him, holding him into my chest. His tiny arms wrap around my neck. At this moment I realized, I need to stop cutting. Not for me, not for Ashton, not for Luke, but for my baby. I don't need him to have his mother end up in the hospital every time she does something stupid. I look up at Luke, he had a half smile on his face. I rest Aiden on my lap. "Come here, you dork." I laughed a little, making him smile. He walked over, wrapping his arms around me. I slide my arms around his neck, pulling him close. "Im sorry, Luke." I started sobbing. "I broke your promise. I'm such an idiot." He ran his hand across the back of my head.
"It's ok. It's not your fault." he soothed me. "I over reacted. Im the idiot." he said. He pulled away. Just as he stands up straight, the doctor walked in.
"Good evening, Amelia. I see you've woken up.How are you feeling?" he spoke, holding a folder.
"Yeah, feeling ok, I guess." I said, a yawn escaping my mouth.
"Good to hear." he said, opening the folder. "I have good news! You can go home tonight!" he smiled.
"That's great!" I said, smiling.
"But you shouldn't go to school tomorrow. You should rest, try to build your blood back up a bit." he spoke. "Listen," he started writing something down. "Im going to give you two prescriptions. One to rebuild your blood cells a bit, the other is an anti- depressant. Are you ok with that?"he tore off the piece of paper and handed it to me. When I reached up, I noticed my wrists were wrapped in bandages, dried blood was sucked up in them.
"That sounds perfect. As long as I'm around for my baby." I said, wrapping my arms around Aiden.
"Great. Ill see you around, Amelia." he closed his folder, walking out. A nurse walked in, coming over and pulling out the wires and IV tube, before walking out.
"Ok, now I need some clothes to change into." I said, pulling the blankets off of me, swinging my legs over the side of the bed. I stay sat down because I'm butt naked under this robe.
"Here you go!" Meghan said, handing me a duffle bag filled with clothes.
"Ok, everybody out." I say, opening the bag.
"Why do we have to leave?" Ashton smirked.
"Because I'm butt ass naked and I don't want any of you seeing me naked now get out!" I said. Everyone chuckled before making their way out. I stand up weakly, my legs just carrying me across the floor. I reach the door, flicking the lock. I slowly make my way back to the bed, I strip out of the robe, sliding on the clothes that Meghan gave me. Once I'm dressed, I make my way out, Aiden in my arms. "Can someone take Aiden? Im feeling a little weak." I lightly spoke. Katie ran over, grabbing him from my arms. My legs shook a bit, I'm a little bit weak in the knees. Ashton slid his arms under mine, keeping me off the ground.
"Here." he said, bending down." Ill carry you." he smiled like a gentleman. He then picked me up bridal style, making me blush. He chuckled, smiling at me, before we all made our way out of the hospital.
A/N
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Amnesia || Ashton Irwin
FanfictionAfter a night of partying and regret, Amelia's parents left her to raise her fatherless son, Aiden, all by herself because they had a disappointment of a daughter. With the help of her best friend and neighbours' mother, she still goes to school and...
