"sumi is my best fwiend now!" miyoon announces, adjusting his position on the couch. "alright, i'm glad" namjoon smiles back. just as namjoon was just about ready to start searching for a movie to watch with miyoon, there was a knock at the door.
"hold on, i'll be right back" namjoon gets up and walks over to the door, opening it slightly. he saw jin standing behind it. he looked a bit less cheerful than usual. then an embarrassing thought approaches namjoon's head. the last time he'd seen jin was when they kissed. jin looks up, unintentionally locking eyes with namjoon. "c-can we talk?" he shyly asks. namjoon nods, hesitantly. after telling miyoon to leave the room, he invites jin inside.
jin walks in first, as namjoon shut the door behind him. just as namjoon turns around, he's caught completely off guard when jin kisses him. jin had to settle this once and for all.
all he was able to think about recently was their initial kiss. more specifically, the feeling that came with it. jin begged himself not to let anything spark inside of him this kiss. no feelings were allowed to be felt in the kiss this time around. if he has the same feeling in his stomach, he'd have to punch it in the face and try to forget about it. usually at this point in his life, a kiss wasn't supposed to feel too important, unless it was done with someone that made it feel important. so when namjoon and jin had that kiss and jin felt something, he lost his mind. that wasn't supposed to happen. it wasn't planned, nor was it okay.
so the only way to test out if it really was namjoon that made it feel like that, there was only one thing to do.
to kiss him again.
which is exactly what jin came to do. this whole thing was bothering him way more than it probably should've. jin only started up the whole fake boyfriend situation to prove taemin wrong. to finally feel like he'd won. the second he ran into taemin that day, he knew he'd be getting himself into a whole mess... but never would he have imagined it'd come to this.
namjoon took jin out of his thoughts when jin felt a pair of hands rest softly against his hips. namjoon didn't care if the kiss was real affection from jin or not; he was going to make the most of it either way. the kiss was gentle and settle, no eagerness or passion at all. jin grabs a hold of namjoon's arm, pushing himself away from the man. fucking shit, he mentally cursed himself. he moves his eyes to namjoon's, hesitantly making eye contact. both him and namjoon were clearly lost for words.
"shit." jin frustratedly growls, beginning to pace back and forth around namjoon's apartment. "what's wrong? was i not supposed to do that?" the younger curiously asks. "it happened again! it wasn't supposed to happen again" he says, his voice suddenly cracking as he was now on the verge of tears. "what happened?" "the feeling, the s-same one" namjoon sighs, "jin, sit down" he finally suggests. jin did as told, watching as namjoon comes to join him.
"alright so... um-" namjoon didn't know where to start. he was still mentally fanboying over their kiss. everything was so hard to process. jin had just kissed him. twice.
that's when jin goes onto an unexpected rant. "i really loved our friendship, namjoon. i'm so sorry for all of this. i'm sorry for starting this whole boyfriend t-thing and for kissing y-you, and uh- because i- it's just- now e-everything is different. if i'd never asked you to be my fake boyfriend then i n-never would've kissed you an-and i never would've felt anything and everything would b-be no-normal" jin was now a bit embarrassed, but mainly because of how many times he'd stuttered out of nervousness. namjoon's eyes go wide at the words that'd just left jin's mouth. "f-felt anything...?" he repeats, confusedly. if jin meant what he was thinking, he would surely lose his mind.
"the feeling... the one you get when something like- when something lights up inside of you" jin quietly spoke.
namjoon leans forward, quickly - but softly - reconnecting their lips. they slow the pace in which their lips were moving at, trying to balance the rhythm between them. jin wanted to stop the kiss more than anything, but for some reason, didn't. at one point though, namjoon finally decides to pull away. they both try to steady their breathing and the younger man gulped.
"i know what you're talking about,"
"because i just felt it too."
