Played by Fate (JenLisa Fanfic)

Chapter 4

Lisa's POV

I can't stop thinking about what happened earlier and Jennie while driving. My mind was full of thoughts.  Both negative and positive. I do love my family but I love Jennie more than anything. I'm willing to surrender everything just for Jennie. I will fight for this.

I took my phone out of my bag using my right hand. I texted Jennie that I'm almost near the place where we should meet.

After 5 minutes, I finally arrived. I sighed and breathe deeply. I went out of the car and proceed to the nearest bench. I sat down and took my phone again. It's already 2:17 AM, I'm late and Jennie too. I texted her again to let her know that I'm already here. I don't want to call her because I know she's driving.

3:30 AM

Still, Jennie didn't show up. No call, no text from her. Negative thoughts started to fill my mind. No, Jennie is just late. Jennie will show up.

I tried calling her but no response. I called her for how many fucking times. I know, any minute from now, my tears will flow down. I sighed and removed all the negative thoughts filling my head. Jennie loves me, she will come. I will patiently wait for her.

I took my phone and opened my gallery. I clicked one of Jennie's photo. I smiled and started to caress my screen, thinking it was Jennie. "I know you'll come. I love you Nini. No one can change that. I hope you didn't change your mind." I whispered to myself.

I felt a rain drop touching my skin. I raised my head. No wonder, the
clouds were dark. I stood up when the rain became heavy. I ran and went to a tree where I can cover myself from being wet. Fuck! It's cold. I raised my arm to see what time is it. 4:04 AM but my hope was still here. I trust Jennie, no one can blame me.
I felt my phone buzzed and I immediately swiped my screen to see my Jennie's name on the screen. I opened the message excitedly.

"I'm sorry Lisa"
"Just go home, I can't do this" my hands started to tremble. No she's just joking right? i replied as fast as I could. "Why? C'mon Jennie stop this bullshit" I waited for her reply but I received nothing. No doubt that Jennie is not joking. She's serious.

I waited for her reply for fucking 20 minutes but she didn't respond. Nini, why? I hugged my knees and wrap my own arms to my torso. I'm now shivering in cold.

My eyes started to blur. I am dreaming right? I can't breathe.
As my tears fall down, the rain trickles one by one. It seems like I live for this weather. I let my tears fall down because holding back my tears is like holding my breath. I let my tears fall down because my heart can no longer handle the pain. This is me now, not happy, not sad but empty......

Jennie's POV

"Mom, I have to go somewhere. I'll be back" I said faintly. She stood up and showed her smile.

"Thank you Jennie" she said as her eyes become teary again. I smiled back for an answer.

"I'll go now mom" I said and started to step out of our house.

I opened the door car and step inside. I told the driver to drive where Lisa is. The rain started to fall one by one. It was a heavy rain, actually. I'm worried about Lisa.

When I felt the car moved, my tears started to fall. I closed my eyes and heaved a deep sigh. I tried myself not to sob. But what can I do? I am fucking hurt.

This is too much, I said to myself. I love Lisa, I really really love her. I hate myself. I fcking hate myself. How can I manage to do this? I want to see her as soon as possible.

"Ma'am we're here"

I wiped my tears and started to roam my eyes, finding Lisa. There, I saw her under the tree. My tears started to fall again. Fuck! I let myself sob because I can't take this anymore. I could feel my throat aching. I took out my phone and swipe the screen, showing my Lili's picture. I texted her. I started to type and I could feel my hands trembling.
"I'm sorry Lisa"
"Just go home, I can't do this"

I held my phone tightly and watch how Lisa took out her phone. She was smiling. That's my Lisa everytime she received a message from me. Her expression changed and I know, she had read the message already. I can see clearly how her smile turned into a confuse one.
"I'm sorry Lili" I murmured and let my sob filled the car. I felt my phone buzzed and Lisa's name was there.
"Why? C'mon Jennie stop this bullshit" I could only cry in the moment upon reading her reply. I have no courage to respond. I'm a fucking coward!

I can see how Lisa looked up and closed her eyes. She's hurt. I can see it to her face. She's crying and I wanted to run and hug her tight. I'm sorry baby, I'm stupid for hurting you.

She stood up and started to walked weakly. I was shocked when she turned her head to our direction. She run as fast as she could. She knocked and started to talk.

"Jennie, I thought you're not coming. Please go out now" she said. I heaved a deep sigh and wiped my tears.
I stepped out of the car.
We let ourselves soak from wet.
She hugged me and she started to sob. I wanted to hug her tight but I stop myself. I don't deserve this girl. She's too good to be hurt. I pushed her between our hugs.

"Nini" She said. Fuck, everything was starting to blur. I can feel my tears fall down. Hearing her sad voice kills me inside. You're such a coward Nini.

"Lisa let's break up" I said and silently cursed myself for how many times.

"Nini why? Did I do something? I'm sorry baby if I'm that stupid to do something without knowing it myself" she said while crying.

"No Lisa, you did nothing. It's just that I don't want to be with you anymore. I'm sorry" I said and averted my eyes from her. I can't breath, I just want to lay down and weep.

"N-ni-ni w-why?" Her voice was cracked and she can't even talk properly. She's hurt, I can't blame her.

"Lisa! Wake up! Don't be a selfish! You should think your family first! I'm sorry but my family is more valuable than you!" I shouted at her. Fuck you Jennie for hurting your Lisa.

"Jen-nnie I chose y-you. How can you do this to me?" She said and started sobbing. I want to hug her and retract my words that I thrown to her.

"Lisa just go home and manage your company. Go to New Zealand and start your training" I said coldly.

"Nini, you love me right? Please tell me you love me more than anything" she begged while holding my hands.

I pulled my hands from her grip. I heave a deep sigh and faced her.
"No Lisa, I don't love you anymore. I'm not selfish like you. Just think your family and be with them. I chose my family over you and I hope you too." I said while looking at her eyes.

"Let's end up it here. I'm breaking up with you" I said

She kneeled down and I let her cried in front of me. You're so stupid Jennie. I turned my back and went inside my car and closed the door.

I was trying to hold back my tears but I failed, as my tears started to fall down. Seeing her in that kind of situation is killing me inside. I wanted to hurt myself.
I could only think of her now. Our memories suddenly appeared to my mind and I started to sob.

"Drive me home" I said to my driver.
When the car moved, Lisa knocked for how many times.

"Nini don't be like this please" she was running trying to chase me. I stop myself from turning my head to her direction. I watched her thorugh the side mirror. When she can't chase the car anymore, she stopped and stumbled at the floor.

I closed my eyes. I hate you Jennie Kim. I really really hate you for hurting Lisa Manoban.

I want to come with her.
I want to hug her, to kiss her, and to comfort her. I Want to say how much I love her. But the fate played us. It's like the fate telling us that we are not meant for each other. That we don't deserve each other. We were a victim by a fake world. We were played by fate, this fucking fate.