Jennie's POV
"Let's go, it's cold outside" Lisa said. I want to protest, I want to stay like this, hugging each other. God knows how much I miss this woman.
But this is wrong, I'm engage and will marry soon. It broke my heart thinking that I will be marrying soon and Lisa might find another woman who'll make her happy. She deserves it though but is it bad for being a selfish? I want her, mine only but I know someday, she will be marrying and it's not me.
"Jennie, are you okay?" I shrugged my own thoughts and smiled to her.
"Yes Lili" she was stunned. I know, it's because of 'Lili'
"I'll drive you home" she said and we walked towards her car.
She opened the front seat door and I stepped in and so as she. We settled in and she started the engine.
"Just point the way" she briefly said. I just nod in response
Silence swallowed us. It makes me deaf.
We stayed like this, no one has dare to speak. Yes, we breathe the same air but it is like we are diverged in different planet. We are together but it seems like we are apart. We can see each other but it seems like we're both blind. Blind in reality that we can't be together. We can't be happy in each other's arm. We can't have each other, as long as the fate let us be.
After how minutes, "There" I pointed the place where I live.
She stopped the car but she stayed silent. My legs didn't move. I want to talk but it seems like there was a hindrance. She just stared at the steering wheel. I parted my lips.
"Lisa" I called her name
"Look Jennie. We should stop talking to each other" she said
"Why?" I asked her out of the blue
"What? That's a stupid question Jennie" she said it briefly
"Why we should stop talking?"
"Leave"
"Just answer the fucking question Lisa!" I shouted, I can't take this anymore.
"Don't you get it Jennie Kim? You're marrying Kai soon!" My mouth went agape, I can't breathe. I stared at her splendid eyes that are now covered by sadness and pain. I didn't respond
"Please Jennie, stop talking to me. Just finish our damn business! We have nothing to do with each other once I finish organizing your fucking wedding!" I closed my eyes. I can't take hearing those words. Yes, I do like Kai but I love Lisa.
"Jennie you're hurting me, do you know that?" She asked and I heard her sob.
"It kills me inside everytime I see you! It kills me inside thinking that you'll be marrying soon! It kills me inside that I am not the one who will marrying you! It kills me inside that I am not the one who'll spend my life with you! It kills me inside remembering those time you left me hanging! It kills me inside when Kai introduced you as his fiancé." I remained silent while listening to her resentment.
"I wanted to tell him that Jennie was mine in the first place. But I remembered that you left me, you hurted me."
"And do you know what's the most painful? Everytime I remember you, saying that you don't want to be with me any-m-more" she broke down and covered her face with her both hands while sobbing.
We cried in unison. I didn't think that this would be happen.
"I'm sorry. I'm sorry Lili" that's all I can say. I don't want to talk, I'm afraid that if I talk it might hurt her more.
I tried reaching her face but she shooed my hands.
"Please, let me hold you Lisa, just for the last time" I pleaded.
She held my hands and placed it to her face that are now soaked from tears.
I cried when I felt her face touching my barehands. She closed her eyes, feeling my touch while her tears constantly falling.
"I'm sorry Lili for hurting you for how many times." I said and I started to sobbed. I caressed her cheeks. She opened her eyes and stared directly to my eyes.
She smiled weakly. She removed my hands from touching her face. She held my face and placed her forehead to my forehead.
I closed my eyes and we are both savoring the moment.
"Aigooo~ My Nini will be marrying a guy soon." She said smiling but her eyes can't hide the sadness and pain.
"Please tell him that I will kill him if he hurt you" she said that made me cry harder.
"I'm letting you go Nini" she said and I shook my head for how many times. No words coming out from my mouth. No, it hurts.
"Please be happy." She said
"Now go" I shook my head. Please no Lisa.
"Please Nini, go now so that my pain will stop now. I can't take this anymore. I want to stop the pain, please" she pleaded and slowly removing her forehead from mine.
I sighed deeply and stepped out of the car. I stayed for a while and left the car with a heavy step and pain in my chest. I don't want to hurt her more so I chose to left.
Lisa's POV
I started the engine and drive myself home. I'm tired not only physically but emotionally and mentally. It fucking hurts.
I'm driving in the silent street of Hongdae. I heaved a deep sigh and my tears fell one by one again.
Why me? Among the people, why me? Why I can't be happy?
I let my face drowned by tears, savoring the intermittent scene.
Please, stop the pain. Stop the pain.
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Fiksi Penggemar"I'm sorry Lisa" "Just go home, I can't do this." My eyes started to blur. I am dreaming right? I can't breathe. As my tears fall down, the rain trickles one by one. It seems like I live for this weather. I let my tears fall because holding back my...
