Short Stories - Flaritza

panty dropper part 2

they sat on Flaca's bunk both in an Indian style position facing each other

"talk"

the small woman says now in a much calmer way

"Mar, I am fine. ok? we're not the kind of friends who talk this way, our compliments are always about the other's make up, we fight all the time about the stupidest things for fuck sake we don't even ask how the other is doing and most of the time not even a simple good morning"

Flaca says her eyes filled with tears but her voice strong

"so you're basically trying to say that you don't feel comfortable talking to me but in a polite way"

Maritza says her voice weak and quiet, she looked down to her hands which were a few inches away from Flaca's, she pulls them away as she felt herself being tempted to take Flaca's into her own

"it's not like you feel comfortable talking to me about sensitive things"

Flaca mutters under her breath upset that she hurt the girl she had feelings for

"I do, If I didn't I wouldn't have opened up to you about the whole Humps shit and Juliana and all, but I did. Cause you make me feel safe"

Maritza answers her voice still quiet but weakening

"that's the thing, you lean on me. It's never the other way round, I'm the one who protects you not the other way round"

"I threw a chair at a bitch for you, multiple times fuck I'm known as the 'chair thrower' in here, you don't have to protect me, if you feel like it's too much pressure on you then just don't do it I never begged you to help me or to save me from any situation"

Maritza sobs now looking at Flaca

"that's the thing! I can't fucking stop"

Flaca says now crying too breaking eye contact

"the fuck do you mean?"

Maritza asks clearly not understanding, Flaca jumps off the bunk her hands covering her face

"I can't, I literally fucking can't just not protect you. I just do it unintentionally, I can't handle the thought of you getting hurt or even touched by anyone, I can't stop myself from keeping your ass safe cause I love you so fucking much and I don't want anyone hurting you, it's almost as if I feel that it's my job to keep you safe, but it isn't. my job is to serve slop to these bitches. I can't I want to but I can't, god why the fuck do I have to get attached to people so easily"

Flaca says her hands going through her hair aggressively as she groaned in frustration, Maritza just sat there looking at the pacing girl, feeling bad that she's the reason Flaca feels like this

"Fla it's fine I'm-"

Maritza tries but Flaca quickly interrupts

"NO! no it's not, just stop. Stop being different with me, you're not nice to anyone in here why you gotta be nice to me? stop being a cute little softie with me and start being a bitch, throw a chair at me, slap me, hit me. Fuck stab me or give me a death stare instead of your stupid contagious smile why don't you do any of that?"

Flaca says now completely breaking down and literally on her knees begging Maritza to stop being nice to her

"I don't do that cause I love you too, I don't want to hurt you"

Maritza says also crying, she gently cups Flaca's face making the tall woman even more weak

"do you have any idea how much you're hurting me?"