Classes went by in a haze, I completely blew my supernatural history test. I took my frustration out on my combat teacher breaking both his arms in one blow. I didn't mean to of course, my mind just wandered of to Josie again. I can't help but feel guilty about this morning, she looked scared. As for the teacher, luckily Emma got him patched up pretty quickly.
Just one more class till lunch and hopefully I can blow of some steam after that. I needed to run, fast and as far away as I can. As I took a seat at one of the desks in my potions class Lizzie took the seat next to me. 'Hi Rambo! Heard what happened to your combat teacher. The poor guy. Does this have anything to do with you and my sweet, sweet sister avoiding each other?'
'I'm not avoiding Josie!' I huffed out frustrated. 'She's avoiding me.' I let my head hang low.
'She just needs some time Hope, she burned all the stuff you held dear trying to cover up how much she liked you. She feels horrible, and every time she sees you she panics.'
'I just want to tell her that it's okay Lizzie. I don't blame her, it was an accident. But I never get the chance, she's a pretty fast runner'. I smile sadly. 'I don't want her to feel bad. She was the only one that was even remotely my friend. Besides you now. I- I miss her.'
'I'll talk to her okay, but next time you see her keep your wolf on a leash. Josie thought you were gonna rip her to pieces.' Lizzie smirked.
'What?! I'd never! That's why she looked so scared? Fuck! I didn't mean.. that's not what that was.'
'Oh, I know'. Lizzie's smirk grew impossibly wider. Remember, I slept with Raf, I'd recognize that look anywhere. My eyes grew wide, my cheeks burning up. Is it really that obvious?
'Look Hope.' Lizzie's face turned serious. 'I know Josie still has a thing for you. But if you aren't in this for the full 200 percent. If you even have a single doubt, you'll break her heart. And I swear to god I'll die before I ever let that happen again.'
I couldn't hold it in anymore, I had to tell someone how I felt. Might as well be her twin.
'She's all I can think about lately Lizzie. I mean I love Landon, but.. I don't know. Her confession. It felt like someone hitting me in the chest with a sledgehammer and it released all these feelings. I look at her differently now, I guess it's always been there. I just never thought I was enough.' It felt good getting all this out instead of overthinking and driving myself crazy.
Lizzie looked at me with warm eyes and a smile to match. 'Everything will be okay Hope, things have a way of working out.'
The lunch bell rang and I can't believe I missed another class entirely. Lizzie walked with me to the cafeteria, as we got our food and walked over to a table she asked me the question I was dreading the most.
'So, what are you gonna tell Landon?'
I released a breath I didn't know I was holding. 'Honestly I have no idea. I really don't want to hurt him, he's the sweetest guy and he doesn't deserve this.'
The blonde nodded her head. 'You'll figure it out.'
I have to.
'Uhm'. Lizzie and I looked to the cafeteria entrance and saw Josie standing there looking at us a little lost. 'It's okay I'll go.' I tell Lizzie. 'The last thing I want is for the girl to starve herself because of me'. Lizzie send me a last smile as I started walking towards my room.
I smiled softly at Josie as I passed her on my way out, making sure I gave her all the space she needed. She didn't turn and run.
Progress.
