Still Wishing

#54 Yolo

I wish I could see past my fears
And look at the world through unshielded eyes

I've become aware of the child inside
It likes the sun like reality is fond of darkness

I wish I could break the rainbow I see
To feel the rain beneath my feet,
Running rivers make slippery roads
And puddles for toddler toads

I wonder if those rivers are the same that run down your cheek
The kind that your finger will flick
Before a friend can look
And ask: "are you okay?"

I may make you smile
But only for a short while

Because I saw you an hour ago with a smile on your face
Created by my silliness

Because I saw you minutes ago with a fake tug to your lips
Running away. I get the gist

I wish I knew how to leave you alone
And still be there for support

I wish I knew how to look at you

I'm not sure I do.

I've know you for three years
I've seen you shed some tears

Now I'm not sure what to do
I think your wounds go deeper than I can go
But I'll still be here as a shoulder to lean on
Even when you move on

I'll be her for your trouble seven if they come in doubles

And know that, maybe not physically, but spiritually
I'll be by your side and maybe I'll get to see an eternal smile