Seeing Red ~YoonMin~

Apology

                 Jimin's POV
      "Jimin I know this is really late and you probably won't accept it but I'm so sorry! I just- I just didn't know what to do! All of my life I was raised with harassment and abuse from my father and now that he could be thrown in jail is- is amazing! But I don't know why I chose you as an outlet to release my anger, I truly don't. Maybe it was because of how kind you were to everyone? I don't know! You became who I assaulted in repercussion of my dad hurting me and my mom. I know this is stupid and you shouldn't accept it fully but I am truly sorry for everything I've said and done. This apology doesn't make up for it at all and I'm sorry." Hoseok continues to apologize.
It's taken him this long to realize what he was doing was wrong and incredibly stupid? How does it take this long to realize wrongdoing? I mean I would probably have done similar but not to this extent! Remember Jimin, people really can't change for the better overnight! That takes months, years even to achieve. But I still have to accept his apology, god I hate being so nice!
Hoseok looked down at the floor, taking in and processing what I said. He was about to say something else but stopped.
      "Hoseok, I accept your apology," he looked at me with hope gleaming in his eyes, "But I can't, however, forgive you. What you've done has left scarring of physical, mental, and emotional. I understand a little why you did what you did, but that still does not make it excusable. What you have said has left me flinching at simple movements and disbelieving the compliments I'm given. It has left me depressed, anxious, and I still can't differentiate between reality and dreams. It has given me fear of other guys and even myself. It has ruined my confidence and I've lost all interest in the things I usually love. I quit dancing after the first two weeks you started your assaults. I quit reading the manga and watching the anime I love. I just...froze? I became watered down and the water became stagnant. I am not the same me of multiple years ago. I am a shattered shell of what once was a boy who had a promising future in dance. I could've been one of the best dancers in Korea by now if I wasn't so anxious to start dancing again. You ruined me, Hoseok. You ruined what had been my dream since I was a kid." I said as a tear rushed down my cheek, quickly being followed by more.
        "I did all of this to you, and you didn't sue me? Why don't you completely hate me? Why haven't you taken a swing at me? Come on, stand up!" He said as he pulled me to my feet. "Hoseok, I haven't taken a swing at you because I'm trying to control my anger at you. You were Yoongi's best friend so I can't hurt you, nor hate you, even if you've brought him pain. Hate isn't something I'm going to stoop so low as to find just for you. Another reason being, the doctor told me not to do anything strenuous incase I reopen the scarring of my lungs- which you pierced with my ribs! I can't even laugh now without fear that they'll break again!" I slowly stated before talking quicker at the end.
Calm down Jimin, if you start screaming or give yourself a panic attack it could really hurt you! I took slow and deep breaths to calm myself before speaking again.
"I think it'd be best for us to keep our distance. I might be younger and hurt but I will make your life a living hell if you hurt Yoongi at all. I can handle words from someone who isn't much to me, however, I cannot handle anything happening to someone I care for. Mark my words, Jung. If it means he's be safe, I'd gladly beat the hell out of you and risk hospitalization again. Keep your distance from both of us unless it's about the court case. Then- and only then- talk to me and I'll stand to attest to your abuse." I said my final words and left the bathroom.
Ugh he made me miss most of first period! Taehyung is gonna be so mad!
I briskly made my way to first period, dropping my bag beside my best friend. "Jimin, where were you? Wait, have you been crying? Your eyes are so puffy and your face is pink! Did Hoseok say anything else mean to you?" Taehyung frantically whispered to me.
"It's actually the contrary, Tae! He apologized to me, he cried whilst doing so! He even thanked me for not suing him and for telling my dad to get a case against his dad!" I whispered back to him.
"Jimin, Taehyung, is what you're saying relevant to this lecture?" The teacher loudly asked us. "Yes miss, it is. Jimin was wanting to know what he missed in the time he wasn't present so I was filling him in." Taehyung lied quickly. "Well, Jimin if you have any more questions just ask. I'll get your work from the past month ready and I expect it back on my desk by midterms." She said, writing a reminder about my work down, before going back to her lecture about some chemicals that no one would need to know.
I quickly began taking notes for the rest of the duration of class.