If you're reading this Mum, Dad:
First of all fuck you
Second yes despite you 'hoping that you weren't helicopter parents', yeah, you fucking are.
Finally to mum and dad, you said hat you wouldn't read this because privacy reasons. You can see just how much I trust you on that.
Dad is shutting off the wifi and changing all passwords so I can't use internet.
Also, no technology anywhere that's private.
Even without internet.
Just plain that's it.
Well fuck that, fuck this, and fuck them.
MINIATURE PROTEST STRIKE
FUCK MY GRADES I DONT CARE
IM NOT ALLOWED TO STUDY OR DO WORK IN THE ONE PLACE THAT I CAN CONCENTRATE IN THIS GODFORSAKEN HOUSEHOLD??!!!
SIMPLE I JUST PLAIN FUCKING WONT
I DONT GIVE A SHIT ANYMORE IM DONE
MY GRADES CAN GO FUCK THEMSELVES BECAUSE MY LIFEGOAL IS TO ENJOY MYSELF AND THEN DIE
SO POUR ME SOME COKE AND A FUCKTON OF VODKA INTO MY WATERBOTTLE AND LETS SEE HOW MANY FUCKS I GIVE ABOUT ANY OF MY ACADEMICS
oh look. The internet was just shut off, asshole.
'We seem to be having trouble saving your story. Check your connection'
HaHA-FUCKING-HA
IM TIRED. OF LIFE IN GENERAL.
FRIENDS? Fragile weak and painful like broken glass
FAMILY? Untrustworthy, but stopped by 'protective' domed walls
SCHOOL? Painful, jagged, scraping at my skin forcing any scab to bleed.
RELATIONSHIPS? Fake and hopefully and messy.
HOBBIES? They might make me feel better, but I never have the time and since that great wave of depression hit; all motivation or joy was stripped away.
INTERNET? My only proper friend anymore. Explain things to me, things I never understand! People, places, words, and actions. Entertainment, company, friendship, communication, happiness, control, and so much more you give to me.
They all say that your the problem, I say you're an answer. In my quest for happiness - my question is my happiness. And nothing's going okay, but it just got worse when they took you away. Alongside all that you gave to me.
LIFE? Breaking, falling, failing, well now I'm no longer caring.
HOTEL? Trivago
YOU ARE READING
So how's 2019 going so far Pyrite?
RandomLook. I'm one day in and already tired. So I'm going to keep track of this year that will hopefully be better. Yay. I hate this already but I'm going to attempt to write out my issues! Yaaaaaaaaaaay
