So how's 2019 going so far Pyrite?

THE ADVENTURES OF ANIME CLUB

my friends are idiots and anime club is dying because those assholes played cards against humanity in the library and now members are threatening to quit 

THAT WAS WHAT I WROTE TUESDAY 12 MARCH

LETS GO OVER MY FUCKYARD WEEK

MON

good enough, woke up with a snapper moment which is my codeword for DEPRESSIoN dips. panicked because i didnt have my headphones - Chloe brought them to school because i left them there. anxious tense day. anime club crumbling and im aware of it

TUE

those littlefuckers played cards against humanity in the library. a public place, with no idea of privacy. WHAT THE FUCK. WAIT UNTIL THURSDaY FOR ANIME CLUB WHEN WE HAVE A ROOM TO OURSELVES THAT I BOOK. I GO TO THE BOTHER OF DOING THAT AND YOU LITTLE SHITS GET YOURSELF CAUGHT DOING SOMETHING THAT STUPID.

WED

at school by 7 in a rush. dad had construction work to do.  

I FORGOT MY GODDAMN HEADPHONES

OH FUCK FUCK, FUCKITY FUCK

My class is so noisy i can barely work even with the headphones on!

so E X T R E M E anxiety all day FUCkiNg yAy

i spent a good two hours researching how to make a club official or at the least organised/more clublike... 

I think I want to lead anime club. ive been acting parental in the email board, and i just feel like someone needs to get this group back together. 

and i think i want that to be me; because everyone else is failing, and the things i love/care for are dying.

THUR

several emails of various opinions on playing CaH at lunch today. 

i think im going to crack.

theres too much going on between people.

and i want to save anime club

i got there to find Sala, and Wren both writing the 'I LOVE CANADA' joke on the board. several times. all over a classroom board. that i had booked and just WHAT THE FUCK YOU GUYS JUST STOP.

to make a long story short. 

- I was fucking sick of everyones bullshit

- I punched three people but pulled back each time (Quail, Wren, Dandaman)

- I am very surprised i didnt punch Sala, or Wren (more times)

- someone ran out for a teacher probably

- i anxiety attacked in a corner, sat on a desk and hid my face in a pillow

- a teacher came for wren who was crying, ushered everyone out (quite harshly)and glared at me before telling me to stay in the FDL

- it was declared that anime club was SHUT DOWN BY THE TEACHERS

- my literal only reason I was still at this shitty school

- and basically why I wasn't dead yet

- so that happened

and now im at the top of D block. this wasnt the only reason

Goodbye?

Yeah goodbye.

FRI

In hospital until 11.

It didn't work.

Fence was too high.

Goddamn fence.

I called dad.

But now he has more triggers and his depression is worse.

Fuck.

Sad

This isn't fixed, I'll just wait. Until. The next. Time.