There was a period of a year when I stopped writing completely. My creativity was at a halt. The only writing I did in that time were a few letters to my boyfriend, and I have come to realize that they are some of the most genuine expressions I have ever released to another person. This is my favorite of them all.
When I was little I used to watch princess movies
Waiting for the inevitable happy ending
I always told myself "one day that'll be me"
So I would sit and imagine my princess moment when I would be swept off my feet
As the years went on I started imagining it less and less
Until I finally decided that I would never have that
I gave up
The years of being broken, bruised, and literally bloodied
By the girls and boys who I thought loved me took a toll
I thought no one would ever see me as princess material
I would search for love in all the wrong places
But my attempts were to no avail
Then I met you and everything seemed to fall into place
Colors look brighter, songs sound sweeter, everything is just better
All of the years that I was left feeling as if nothing mattered were suddenly diminished
And my heart finally felt full
You're like home and an adventure all in one
I really wish you could hear the way I talk about you to other people
I always had such disdain for the phrase "when you know, you just know"
But when I met you, I knew
As we build together, I continue to be stunned by how much I can love you
I want to share a home with you
I want to know all of the little parts of you that no one else sees
To know everything I can
From your deepest secrets to the most trivial of facts
When I'm with you my hands gravitate towards yours
Intertwining our fingers without trying, lips touching without a thought
I look into your eyes and I see particles of an eternity that I want to live in forever
When we met I felt like my heart was a barren field that had been chopped down to the roots too many times
But you planted seeds and allowed me to blossom and now in time become a garden
Loving you is the easiest task I've ever taken on
Because I've never even had to try to
YOU ARE READING
consumed
Poetry|3rd place poetry in The Butterfly Awards 2019 🦋| There are times in life where you become consumed by thoughts of many things. Instead of letting them overtake you, express them.
