Hold me tight & don't let go.

I need you home, yesterday.

“4 days until you’re 21! Naww, Spennncerrrrr!” Harry awed.

“Shut up!” I laughed.

“I’m gonna take the piss out of you for your birthday now you realise!” I laughed.

“Pfft” he winked.

“Alright, get lost, if you’re late for the studio again you’ll be slaughtered” I replied.

“Alright, catchya later” he said kissing my cheek and walking out of the house.

I sighed as I walked around the lounge room picking up random DVD’s and plates off the floor.

Nothing, nothing had been heard from Liam for almost four months. FOUR MONTHS.

I never, ever imagined that I’d go four months without Liam. This is supposed to be a wicked time; it’s four days until I’m 21. I’m supposed to be excited, everyone goes on about 21 and how awesome it is and I’m dreading it. I’m dreading not being able to have Liam kiss me good morning on my 21st birthday and kiss me goodnight.

To be honest, I don’t even exactly how I’m feeling at the moment. I’m all over place. I miss when I felt sane.

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21st of January 2015, 11:11pm

Dear Journal,

You wanna know what my 11:11 wish is? Bring Liam home to me.

Well, here we go anyway. 49 minutes until I’m officially 21 years old. How mad is that? Twenty-one… doesn’t really seem real.

Please, Journal, please…. I’m begging you, bring Liam home to me… Please. I need him.

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3rd of October 2012

“Wow, it’s amazing, isn’t it?” Liam said in awe.

“Tell me about it” I replied.

We stood in front of the Sydney Opera House with Liam’s arms wrapped around my shoulders.

“OMGGGG, OMFG ITS LIAM PAYNE. ITS LIAM PAYNE” a girl with brown, short hair with a front fringe yelled.

“WHERE!?” her friend with long, brown hair with her screamed.

“Oh my god. Oh my god, it is him, and that’s his girlfriend. Omg that’s Spencer with him!” the girl with the short hair said.

They awkwardly took a few steps towards us then stopped and began to giggle.

I looked at Liam and we walked towards the two girls.

“Hiya girls, how are you?” Liam smiled giving them both a hug.

I took a few steps back and crossed my arms watching them with a smile. Liam was amazing with fans, it was the sweetest thing ever whenever Liam hung out with fans.

“Hey, Spence… take some photos for us please?” he asked.

I nodded and took the camera off of him.

He stood in the middle of the two girls and wrapped his arms around their shoulders, all three of them grinned and I took the photo.

“Another one! Um, silliest faces!” I yelled.

They all pulled the most ridiculous faces they could think of and I took another photo.

“Gorgeous!” I winked.

“Thank you so much! I’m Bek, by the way… and this is my best friend Lilly” the girl with the shorter brown hair grinned.

“Great to meet you, I’m Spe-“ I said.

“Spencer Loomingdale, trust me… we know who you are” Lilly laughed.

“Awp, you’re so sweet. Do you wanna hang with us?” I asked.

“What, like seriously!?” Bek gasped.

“Yeah, sure! Liam would love it, wouldn’t ya babe?” I smiled.

“Yeah, let’s go!” Liam yelled.

 A/N: short chapter but I'm really busy so I had to quickly write and upload this. Thanks for reading. Vote, Comment, Fan. LOVE YOU X

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