When I'm Gone

Chapter 8

For days his comment was running through my mind. Another little Mathers running around. He wanted more children, most likely with me. That scared me. Not because I didn't want more kids because I do but he works away for long periods. He might need to tour again or I don't know what else could pop up.

I don't want to be thirty without any further education under my belt looking for something to do in life to pass the time as I wait for my kids to come home from school. There is so much I could do with my nursing career once I have it.

I was folding the last of my washing when my phone rang. I ran to answer the phone. As soon as I picked up the phone Martells voice spoke "I need you to meet me at the address I am about to send to you. Please come as soon as you can. I love you, baby."

Before I could respond to him he hung up. I collected my bag and keys and I drove to the address in my old neighbourhood. I slowly pulled into the long driveway stopping outside the front door. Martell stood on the veranda with his hands in his jean pockets. He smiled at me pulling me into his awaiting arms. "Hey baby, I found this place and wanted to see if you agreed this is the one."

He led me into the house and closed the door. He spoke excitedly "there are five bedrooms, three bathrooms and a huge backyard with a tree house. I know you think this may be fast but I want us to be a family, together. I love you."

I wrapped my arms around his neck, cuddling my face into his sun-kissed skin "I love you Martell Mathers and I love that you want us to be a family but have you talked to Andre yet? I don't want to commit to anything yet if you are going to have to leave."

Martell cupped my cheek "I talked to Andre. He threatened to sue me when I told him I was moving back here. But I promised I would work at another studio his company owns or I would buy one and make my music for him there until next year when our contract period is up. He has agreed to those terms and the extra term of no more concerts until we give the green light. I want to be here with you and the girls. I will show you that every day for the rest of our long lives. Move in here with me?"

I quickly kissed his lips "show me the house before I agree."

He took my hand dragging me around. We started downstairs with the huge open kitchen and then to the dining room and family room. Next to the family room was a decent sized bedroom with a small walk-in closet. Next door to that was a small bathroom with a toilet and small sink. Before I could take the first step up the stairs Martell stopped me by putting his hand on my waist. He spun me around and then picked me up carrying me bridal style up to the stairs.

The first room was stunning. It was larger than the one downstairs. I could imagine Amity in here, she would love how large it is and she could even paint the walls if it were to become ours. We moved into the next room which was a bathroom. It was nice and small which would be good for the girls especially when Hallie was toilet trained and Amity was in her teens.

We moved onto the next bedroom that was similar in size with the other room. This one would be for Hallie. It was considerably close to the master. As we walked into the next room I was blown away. The master bedroom was huge. A feature wall was a deep scarlet red whilst the other walls were black. The bedroom had a walk in wardrobe and an en enjoining bathroom with a double shower. I glanced over to Martell and he was smiling to himself.

I walked over to him wrapping my arms around his waist "I love this house it is beautiful. I see our girls loving it."

He smirked cockily "I also think you love our bedroom. Imagine what we could get up to here."

I laughed jokingly "who said I want to share a bed with you, Mathers. I think you might have boy germs."

He laughed holding me tighter "you will be begging soon enough to share my bed when your sleeping on the couch. Although I am glad you love this house I already brought it."

I sniggered shocked that he had already gone ahead and brought the place. I playfully hit his chest "asshole, how did you know I would even love this house. I may have hated the kitchen or the bedrooms. I could have not wanted to move in with you."

He quickly kissed my lips trying to soothe my temper "you may have not wanted to move in but someday I hoped that you would. I hoped that your love for me meant that you would want to stay with me. If not I would be sleeping on your couch indefinitely because I don't want to be away anymore."

By that stage he had me crying "let's move in. I have dreamed of this moment happening since we first go together. Let's jump all in."

He peppered kisses all over my face and neck repeating how he loved me, thanking me but I was stunned. I left Martell in the house while I went to get Amity from school and Hallie from daycare. Amity took a while to walk out she had just gotten in with the cool kids. When we arrived to get Hallie she was basically stuck to my legs. She for some unknown reason hated daycare. But it's good for her.

I was nervous on the way to our place, I could tell Amity was picking up on it. She asked, "Lilee has something happened?"

I shook my head "nothing bad, baby girl. Micky and I were talking today about moving into a bigger house so Mickey could also live with us. How cool would that be? He has found this giant room for you and one for Hallie. How does that sound?"

Amity thought about it for a moment "I don't want to move in with Mickey, I want to stay where we are."