Dear Ashton,

9.

Dear Ashton,

I saw you again.

I wish I hadn't. Honestly.

You were with another girl.

And me? I'm alone with a sharp friend.

Yeah, we made up and were even closer now.

Can't say I regret breaking my promise to you because I don't.

You hurt me Ashton! You hurt me bad. And now I've hurt myself bad.

I cut again. Everywhere this time.

Wrists. Thighs. Stomach.

All over.

Luke just picked me up from the emergency room. He found me this morning and brought me here, but had to leave since his mom needed him for something.

I got seven stitches in my thigh.

I wish he didn't find me though. I wouldn't be writing you this right now and I'd be finally at peace and you'd never have to worry about seeing me again.

You could actually come home for once. Visit your friends and family.

You just irritate me Ash.

How selfish could you be?

Did you honestly think I would be happy for you? Getting over us so goddamn fast?!

No!

You're selfish. You're inconsiderate.

I wish I'd never wake up.

-Riley....