Dear Ashton,

25.

~Michael's POV

Its been a week since Riley got into her accident, they requested she stay another week for medical purposes.

She was in a short lived coma for the first few days. She finally woke up when Calum brought her a big ass teddy bear. The only request I knew she made was to keep Luke far from her, and for a journal.

She wanted a journal, she said she needed it.

And that's what I was doing. I was working on looking for her journal I saw her writing in a few times before. I dont understand why she asked for a new one when she had a perfectly good one with her.

Rummaging through her bags in our hotel room I finally came across the mint worn down book with papers poking out the edges of it.

It slipped out of my hand and a bunch of them fell out.

"Shit." I muttered as I bent down to pick them up but quickly stopped as I saw the book opened with the words reading, "Dear Ashton," and the papers that fell out, the songs she wrote for him. Amnesia was there and 3 others I didn't know.

Riley's been writing to Ashton this entire time, but she never sent them.

Suddenly the idea hit me. She needs him. He needs her no matter how hard he tried to deny it. I grabbed all the papers and quickly left the room.

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~Riley's POV

"Calum that's not fair you're cheating."

I laughed at him as we sat in my hospital room playing this game we made up called garbage. He kept going down the cards and if he got to one then I'd loose and every time we played he'd win.

"I'm not doing a damn thing besides kicking your ass Ri."

"Hey guys sorry I'm late, there's quite the selection of journals at Target." Michael said as he walked in with a pretty blue colored journal in his hand.

"Yeah right mate, you probably got lost!" Cal joked.

"Yeah inside of the Game Stop next door!" I added making us all laugh.

"So on a semi serious note, Luke's in the hall. Like always." Mikey said making my smile drop slightly.

Its been a week and a few days since I last spoke or even looked at Luke. And I suppose I was being childish, but he'd never understand what me and Ashton had.

"Ugh, fine let him in." I groaned throwing my head back into the pillows.

"Really?" Cal asked cautiously.

"Why not? Not like he can make me do anything else I'm stuck here for the next 4 days."

Michael went to open the door and I could faintly hear the 2 boys talking.

Suddenly Luke's blonde head popped in, flanked by a brunette.

"Alright so I said let the dick in, not the whore he cheated on me with." I spat glaring at Bo.

"Riley, please." Luke said, voice raspy. Eyes red and puffy almost as if he was crying for days.

"Fine, but don't expect me to be nice."

I huffed feeling completely out of it.

I was never one to be so angry, but he also tried changing me into this Bo girl. I'd rather have just been left alone with my private journal and my imaginary Ashton.

"Okay, I'm not sure how to start, but please understand how sorry I am for putting you through hell and saying all those things about Ashton not loving you. I'm so sorry Ri." Luke's voice cracked.

I almost felt bad but I couldn't bring myself to. What he did was fucked up. Maybe he was genuine about us at first but towards the end he tried turning me into her and according to the boys he cheated on me with her too so I felt bad but not enough to take it so seriously.

"Luke, you lied to me. You hurt me. I'd say you hurt me really bad but the truth behind it is, I'm not angry at you. I'm angry at myself for believing that I could use you to replace Ashton. You clearly like this, this umm, Bo." I glanced at her,"I'm sorry to say that I don't like you right now but I guess I'm fine. I just need time. To let things go back to normal. I don't hate either one of you, I'm not fond of you right this moment but I don't hold grudges. It's fine. I love you Luke, and Bo, you have a great guy." I smiled slightly faltering considering I now knew I had no one. That getting over Ashton was so much harder now because I had nothing.

Luke deserves happiness. It isn't his fault I drove mine away.

Ashton. He really needed to come back to me.

"So we're okay?" Luke smiled slightly, hopeful.

"We're more than okay, love." I smiled, "I just miss him."