Boulevard Dreamer (Ryden)

-ninety~six-

dalweekes

no time no see dal

i figured i should keep my distance

oh
okay

no i mean
im happy to talk to you again
how are you?

im okay

you're better than okay bren
it's okay
you can be happy

i am happy

and im happy for you
but that's not what this is about
talk to me
you wouldn't hit me up for nothing
what's on your mind?

lots of things

like?

feelings and junk

ah

yeah

what kinda feelings?

the confusing kind
but it's okay i'll handle it

talk to me
we don't have to be strangers
unless that's what you want?

no i want you in my life
i'm more confused when you're not here

ya gotta open up

can i ask you something?

that's a start
shoot

are you over me yet?

no
like
point blank answer is no
it's just gonna take a while
we have years of history and it'll be hard for me to rewind all that film and start over
but i'm getting there
i'm not forgetting you
i never will
a piece of me will always love you

that's it
that's what i wanted to talk to you about

what..?

i look back through my camera roll and my photos on my laptop and my physical photos and i see your face and i remember how loving you felt

that's all that is
you're just remembering a feeling
trust me
it hasn't suddenly come back

how do you know?

i've learned a lot from this breakup and how to deal with it
i think your biggest problem with it is the fact that you're not letting yourself move on from me
you have to let yourself be happy
you deserve it
you deserve happiness and all the love in the world with the person you want to be with
i love you very, very much
a piece of me always will
a piece of you can love me too
that's okay
as long as the rest of you feels love and not what once was, i'm happy for you
i want you to be happy
even if you don't find that happiness with me

dallon?

yeah?

please don't ever leave me
i love you
please don't leave

how do you love me?

i just need you in my life
i don't really know what i'm doing without you there

are you not happy with ryan?

nonono
i am
he's wonderful, he's beautiful and charming
the love is just different
it feels different
it doesn't feel like you

wanna know a secret?
it never will
we had our time
it's passed
and time marches on whether we like it or not
the love you have for him will never feel like the love we had because i'm not ryan and he's not me
look
if we're meant to be together, we will be
if the time is right
if you and ryan are meant to be, you'll never doubt it
just like you never doubted us
and we'll be okay
you'll be okay
trust me
you trust me don't you?

definitely

trust me now

i will
thank you
i love you

i love you, too brendon
~

1) happy late birthday to theshadowbiscuit 💛 you're a lovely human being and this one's for you
2) the social anxiety and general sadness has set in, so i'm working on this during my prom🤙

glad to see these two are talking like civil people again though.

~RJ🌟