Boulevard Dreamer (Ryden)

-ninety~seven-

brendoesmusic

so
i talked to dallon again

oh

is
is that a bad oh?

no
not particularly
what'd ya talk about?

i was gonna tell u
i don't want us to start off our..
thingie

relationship
if i can say it, so can you
because it says a lot if i can even say it

touché love
i didn't wanna start our /relationship/ off with secrets n lies n junk bc it's all downhill from there
so
i talked to him bc i had this feeling
like a little piece of me had this.. feeling

whoa

what?

i totally understand that
it's like
as much you care for this other person
a part of you, an itty-bitty part of you that's almost nothing anyway
it's like
"hey. remember your ex?"

YES
WTF
ARE WE ALREADY PSYCHOLOGICALLY LINKED?

is that a real thing?
i thought that was a girl thing
like
periods and stuff

i love that you know that
and yes
girls tend to sync their cycles

why do we both know about periods?

i
don't know
let's not talk about periods when neither of us get them

elizabeth might kill us

nah that's not it
i respectfully fear her but that's not it
i just don't experience them so it feels
weird
i guess
to talk about something that i've never experienced

what, like sex?

noooo...

oh
oh, i was totally joking
um
brendon

george

rude

sorry

you're not but it's fine
so
you're telling me
you were with dallon for years
and you two never...

nope

okay
well
i'm not gonna press on that one anymore
mostly because that's your business and you have a right to your own business

did you and z ever...

oh, totally
more than once

okay
do you regret it..?

not really
only because i loved her

do you
ever think about her like that?

like
in that way
or do i still love her?

yes...?

i love her in a different way
i want her in my life
but in a different way
rather than being my lover, i love her as my best friend
and no
i don't want to shag my best friend

okay u hecking brit

i don't know how else to put it
and the brits tend to know how to be all
prude-y
not that you're a prude

i most certainly am not

now, don't tempt me
;)

~

lmao i think this chapter had a plot when i started, but then i was like, "what if they talked about periods?" and it spiralled.

nearing the ends, friends✨

should be up by friday (4/19)

oh. hey, that's my birthday😝

~RJ🌸