Do you ever feel an emptiness in your chest, I am asking from a longing to be less alone with experiencing these unpleasant, deathly emotions
I lie awake at night sometimes enjoying the view of the lights, sometimes feeling more creative and more alive
Then there are the days when my thoughts keep me awake whilst tiring me out.
I think over everything and every last regret;
What if I gave that person another chance or what if I decided not to give my life another go
How people would feel I can only assume as I could never know for sure
Would I be doing them a favour and do they still want me here
What if I never discovered that song on that night when I was contemplating taking my life to a flight into heaven
What if that friend never noticed that I wasn't doing well
What if I didn't reach out, would I have had to save myself ?
What if I never felt love so strong with you that I compare every other relationship to my one with you
What if I never had you but most of all what if I never let you go
I believe everything bad teaches us a lesson and I've got to fight for love for relationships take effort and nothing is as easy as it seems
If everything happens for a reason then was the reason I let you go to make myself eternally miserable
What if I get better
What if I escape this maze called depression
But what if I get worse
I will push you away, you'll get sick of me and I am once again lonely
Not just with this empty feeling in my chest but a physical loneliness of no one caring.
I feel it now but then I get reassurance from friends who 'need me here'
I feel it now but friends try to explain that they 'know how I feel'
What if I died and then I lived again in heaven repeating life on a loop
What if death is a trap
But I could reach nirvana... bliss... happiness a simple emotion but why god I don't believe in please tell me why won't you just let me be happy
What if I was happy...
What if I wanted to live my life...
What if I decided to stay here on earth..
How would my story end?
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Poems on a dark night 🖤
PoetryPoems. Mostly written at night. Inspired by some of life's biggest tragedy's or questions. Just trying to make art out of my thoughts and I would really appreciate any reads and votes this book may get. 🌸🥀🌹👠🌴🍃🌻🌼🌞🌚🖤👽💀👻🤘🏼
