Please help, I did it again.
I'm not here to steal.
A lyric or word; a hoodie or a smile
I really can't take this again.
My breath is strangling me in my throat again
You believe in me.
It's time for the truth.
I'm failing everything.
That is the truth
But at least I have food on the table for now to know what I'm missing out on when I fail my exams and then can't buy a house
I worry about the future
But I feel like I've already seen it in my dreams
And that's how I know that everything ends in catastrophe
I know I won't be laughing when the time comes but maybe I can use my depression as an excuse for being lazy again
Anxiety as a reason I never tried to stand up for what I believe
Every system has inequalities
I never feel enough
Not when I am compared to your genes
My sister the overachiever
The younger ones immature
Never doing well no matter how hard she tries it seems
I'll try not to be distant when you get in touch with me, but please don't be so angry if I leave
I won't leave a note
So don't make a scene
I'm too broken for someone to miss me
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Trigger warning sorry-
This poem was just my 3am thoughts about wanting to die basically and going into that anxiety spiral and thinking I will fail at everything but good things will come to everyone who is kind in life as you all deserve the world, messages are open for anyone who needs to talk ;)
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PoetryPoems. Mostly written at night. Inspired by some of life's biggest tragedy's or questions. Just trying to make art out of my thoughts and I would really appreciate any reads and votes this book may get. 🌸🥀🌹👠🌴🍃🌻🌼🌞🌚🖤👽💀👻🤘🏼
