Love Is Magic // Noah Centineo (Complete)

13 - "I was a damn fool."

Noah's POV:

"Mama!" Ellorie gasped with pain in her voice, "Why?! Why would you let us think that?!"

I hated seeing Ellorie and Venus so sad, emotional, and broken. It's the last thing I could ever want, I don't want them to feel so sad but I know there is nothing I can do to take their pain away.

"Mom... How?" Venus could barley speak, "How could you even make it through that whole trip without feeling sick?"

"The doctors gave me some steroids to take to help me through the couple of days we were there, but I could feel them wearing off so that's when I needed down time," She was speaking as loud as she could, but that was only a whisper, "I knew baby, I knew that when we got back home that this would happen. I hate to put this on you girls and I hate to leave you... But I know my time here is up."

Both girls crawled up into their mom's hospital bed and cried together. I walked over to Venus's side and rubbed her back for comfort.

"I love you both so much," Judith whispered to them and gave them both a kiss on their forehead, "I'm sorry that I couldn't get better, I wanted to be here to watch you both get married, to see you go to college, but please always remember that I'm going to be watching over you from up above, I'll have the best view in the world. I have faith in both of you, you're both going to grow up to do amazing things."

"Mama, please don't go..." Ellorie cried.

"I don't wanna go baby, but it's not up to me," she stroked Ellorie's hair to help calm her, "There is a higher power, He is the one making the decisions. I love you, sweetie, with all of my heart."

"Mom, are you in pain?" Venus asked, concerned.

"The only pain I feel right now is in my heart because I don't want to leave you girls," Judith turned to Venus, "You two are life's greatest gifts. My most prized possessions. I couldn't ask for better daughters, or better friends, you two are my best friends in the whole world."

A doctor and two nurses came in to talk with us.

"Hi everybody," The doctors said, "We have some paperwork for Judith to fill out regarding her wishes, and we came to speak with you on what you want to proceed with."

"Proceed with? What does that mean?" Venus asked, crawling out of bed and standing alongside me.

"Well, if your mother chooses to stay on the supporting machines, it could prolong her life for a few days, maybe a week," he suggested, "But if she wishes to be taken off of them, it could be a few hours."

"Isn't there medicine you can give her? What other treatments does she qualify for?" Venus asked, crossing her arms over her chest, slightly angry.

"Venus, baby, there are no more treatments that can help me," Judith spoke weakly, "I think it's best if we shut the machines down."

"No!!" Ellorie cried, "Mama I can't lose you!!"

"We'll leave these papers here and give you some time to discuss." The doctor said as the nurses left the paperwork on the table and followed the doctor out of the room.

"Mom!! Please don't let go!! Don't give up!! You're stronger than anyone I know, please, let's just be smart about this, there has to be some kind of treatment they can try." Venus insisted.

I hated seeing them all like this. Judith could be nearing the end of her life and the girls are trying so hard to get her to go for more treatments but I think they both know that nothing is going to be able to save their mom at this point.

"I'm sorry baby," Judith said with tears in her eyes, "I'm so so sorry. I have faith that God will guide you and take care of you," Judith looked up at me, and then to the girls, "And you have Noah, I am so happy you have Noah."