Streets and Streets IV

30. When I Get Home

Sloane's POV

"Don't fucking touch me." She punched me right in my mouth. She got me good too, her ring cut my lip but I didn't have time to focus on the pain. I could tell from the look on her face she didn't mean to hit me that hard let alone make me bleed but she was going to stand her ground. I touched my lip with my right hand staring at the blood waiting for her to speak.

"Why didn't you say anything. Sloane we talk about everything else why didn't you say something." Her voice crackled as she spoke.

"Is that what you think of me? We have one encounter with my ex after years and I'm just going to up and leave?" I couldn't answer her questions. Something in me literally wouldn't let me.

"I'm not going to make any excuses for what I did baby. It wouldn't be right. I'm not him..."

"You are. You are breaking up this family." She sat down rubbing her thighs. She was confused and hurt and even though I knew apart of her was going to stay and even bigger part of me knew it wouldn't be the same.

"Do you know how much I love you?" I asked.

"I though I did. If you were to ask me three hours ago I was winning but now... I don't even know if I care." My eyes widened.

"At least when Deontay cheated he didn't bring me anything back." She was sorting her thoughts out. I absorbed all the shots she took at me because they were valid. She took her first dose of medicine. Apparently she was too frazzled in the office to take it in front of the doctor.

"I don't know what to say. But you can't leave. I didn't mean to break us up or make you insecure because you Are all I could ever dream of." Making her feel inadequate was never my intention. E is a great mother and wife and the basic piece of pussy I fell in to wasn't worth ending it all.

"Which bottle girl?" She spoke after 10 whole minutes.
"I know this is my fault just let me fix it E." I rambled on.

"WHICH FUCKING BOTTLE GIRL!?" I knew the whole staff could hear her.

"Melody" I spit back. The last thing I wanted to do was make it seem like I was lying. I had to tell the truth and make her feel like it.

"And a new one at that! Do you know how embarrassing that is for your entire staff to know you fucked one if your employees?" I hadn't even thought that far in to the situation. I have single handedly made my wife in to a joke in the business we own.

"Baby..."

"How long have you been fucking her?" She stood up. We would be able to have sex for at least a month, hell maybe 6 but I couldn't help but  notice at how good she looks.

"It was once. The first and last time E." Her face softened. It was like I got a little bit of E back.

"So if I go out here and give Deontay some pussy how is that going to make you feel? It's obvious that you don't believe it's yours any way so let's spread the wealth." She walked around the office knocking things over.

"That's not going to solve anything E."

"Exactly so why are you fucking bitches raw Bab... Sloane. And a month before the fucking  wedding?" The thing that hurt me the most was her going from baby to Sloane.

"What if she is pregnant?" She yelled while flipping the coffee table.

"I know for a fact I don't bust in that girl E." I yelled back trying to stop her from destroying the rest of my office.

"I can't fucking believe you. Take your stupid ass to the doctor."

"Please don't cry." I walked closer to her.

"I should give this pussy to a nigga that would appreciate it. Fuck it why don't I give myself to a someone that would appreciate it!" She was still screaming at the top of her lungs. I couldn't tell he not to because that would be hypocritical of me.

"I'll kill him and the bitch he living with before you do." The conversation was growing repetitive and I was tired of playing. My laps of judgement was going to rip us apart but not if I could stop it first.

"Now you wanna puff your chest out. Stop acting crazy boy." She waved me off.

"You know I'm not playing. Fucking that girl meant nothing to me and in your heart you know it didn't. I'm sorry for not talking to you after he showed up but everything moved so fast I... I know this is my fault but we are going to get through this. We finna have this wedding and I'm owning up to everything." She continued to cry with out saying a word.

"He can't give you what you need and you know it. You know he doesn't love you like I do" Her eyes shot up at me. She knew I was right.

"I literally adore you E. I always have. I make it a point in my day to make you feel good physically and emotionally because it makes me feel good." I began to plead with her.

"That would be a great line if I wasn't being treated for chlamydia." She said lowering her volume.

"I put your health at risk and I know I can't apologize enough..."

"You are so right. Your dirty dick ass can't fuck my attitude away this time. You better pray that I even let you sleep next to me." She finally looked me in the eye. I watched her walk too the door putting the baby bag on her shoulder.

"Then guilt has been eating you alive huh" She looked me up and down. E was puzzled and I could tell she was close to figuring it out.

"You are off your meds." She walked over to me examining me. She grabbed my chin looking in my eyes.

"Wow. You been off since that week haven't you? A whole month? Why didn't you fill the prescription?" She was even more disappointed. I knew she wouldn't leave if she thought she had to patch me up again.

"I just never picked it up." I came clean, at least in her eyes.

"For gods sake babe" I would never not take my medicine especially with the baby in the house and the fact that I'm actively trying for baby number 2. I had to do anything keep E. She ran her hands down her face.

"You remember when we went to the thing for Nate's wife? At the ranch? Do you remember how happy we were?" I wanted her to know we weren't always bad. I changed the subject.

"That's in the past."

"Then let's worry about the future." I grabbed her by the strap of the baby bag. I was surprised that she didn't try to hit me when I pulled her in to my chest and wrapped my arms around her. I held her in place when I hear cry every harder.

"I love you and I apologize for hurting you baby but I need you. You will be the mother of all of my children, you are my wife." I exhaled when she hugged me back.

"I'm not letting you go and if you think about fucking someone him, her or any one else... they and the people they love will die."

"You want me to go take these pills, clean myself up, and go back to being E? If I wanted to be cheated on I would have stayed with..."

"Don't say his name." I had to play up attitude for her to stay.

"I know it's not that easy but can we try?" I asked now looking in her eyes. My hands rested on her hips.

"I hate that I love you. I made a promise to my self that I would never put myself in a position like this and..." she took a short pause breaking my grasp on her.

"And now with my son in the picture I don't know what to do." Her son? Now he was just her son?

"Please give me one more chance. Can you be home when I get there E? I don't want my family to suffer for my mistakes."

"I don't... I'm taking my son home I need some time away from you." She left the office with out a word. A weight was lifted off of my shoulders just by her telling me she was going home.

"Shit" I said out loud. I admit I never thought about her finding out let alone passing any to her.

I had fucked up beyond belief and I had to make it right.