Streets and Streets IV

14. Flashback

Sloane's POV

"Come change my mind." She took her time walking up the stairs, tiptoeing past the nursery, stopping just past the bedroom door makings sure I followed. I don't know how I would function know there wasn't even a chance to touch her. After years of chasing and fight we were finally together. Together forever at this point.

A relationship isn't all emotional and mental, there are definitely other components. I think if our physical connection all the time. With Emerald, I found the value in love, the value in a physical connection.

Sex. Something that I was terrified to try but once I got a taste I didn't want to stop. For a while I was just getting my dick wet until I met Lucky. I thought Lucky was the one until the night of our first fight. The long drawn out argument that sat in the back of my mind. We were young but Lucky spent most of her time with me. I worked my ass off to maintain that little apartment and the little lifestyle we had. We played house extremely well. I worked, she held down the home front but our would was never as stable as we thought.

Emerald and Deontay were on the outs resulting in Lucky going to be by her side. It was something that happened way too often for me to think anything of it. I mean week after week it was something different and Lucky was usually there to be the shoulder to cry on.

But that night she didn't come home and I waited up thinking she would but I was wrong. When she did I snapped because where in the hell could she have been? Out with her newly single friend who now had no boundaries? Fuck that. There is no way in hell she is going to play me. I'm Sloane Thompson and anyone in the city would be lucky to have me in their life. I didn't believe anything that came out out of her mouth the next morning making it hard to even look at her.

For weeks after I barely looked in Lucky's direction. Even though I had not cheated on her in that instant I did everything to make her think I did. I started staying in the block later, which at the time was risky. I used to take my phone calls in another room, change my clothes in the middle of the day, and anything else I could do to raise suspicion. When Lucky couldn't bare it anymore she called in a little back up. Emerald called my phone 100 times a day for what seemed to be weeks.

I can still remember the soft knock at the door. Before that argue I tried nirvana really paid Emerald much attention. Sure I had a crush on her. I craved her at one point, but when Deontay swooped in and I fell back. The four of us went from a friend group to two different relationships very fast. When the knocking continued I turned the TV up to tune it out.

"She must have forgotten her key." I remember thinking to myself. I did move a muscle before I heard her voice. I waited for her to speak again before opening the door. Emerald begged me to stop treating Lucky badly. She came to Lucky's rescue.

"If I had some like you maybe I would let Deontay in." She crossed her legs as the tears fell from her face. I watched her cry with out saying a word. I was doing so well with minding my business and staying out of their relationship. I can't lie I was hurt that she was hurt but Emerald wasn't my problem nor responsibility.

"How do you do it? Lucky said her first time with you was amazing. She wasn't in pain like everyone else..." I knew that they were friends but I didn't know that Lucky told Emerald everything. She was worried about the inevitable, loosing him.

"I waited until she was ready. Until she initiated it really. I didn't want her to regret it. I waited until she was relaxed and calm..." I flashed back to the first time. Emerald and I shared my couch as she grew more flustered with the state of her virginity.
"You love him right? It should be easy." I tried to wrap the conversation up. I was baffled because Tay made it seem like that was the least of his worries. At one point I was the least of mine. I was barely a high school senior fucking morning, noon, and night as if I was grown.
"I was going to wait until prom. Prom. But I I'm ready now." She E was so close to me at this point that she could see I was ready too. I was fully at attention hoping she would leave before it was noticed.

"I don't know if we should be talking about... Thank you for coming over to talk." If I hadn't stopped the conversation I would have been in a worse situation. Believe it or not I wasn't always an asshole.

That was the night. The night I every feeling I ever had for her cane back. The night that the love I had for anyone but Emerald faded.

"She really is Lucky. From what I hear." Even then I was weak. I let her legs open. I let her her hands unbuckle my belt. I made myself kiss her. Let myself get wrapped up and it felt like I had won.

"I can't." She laid under me disappointed. I tried to talk my self in to leaving it alone but I couldn't, well wouldn't.

"It has to be you. I need it to be you" that's was it.

End of thoughts...

"Come change my mind" I watched her stand in the door way. The huge white shirt graced her body waiting for me to slip it off. I follow her in the room hoping this wasn't another one of her games. Her parties hit the ground there was no going back.

"You like that huh?" Her body melted in to mine while my fingers worked their way in to her folds. She spread her legs letting her juices flow.

"Sit" I stopped and watched her make her way to the bed. She rolled her her hips on my tongue. My head between her legs, making her toes curl, and her heart stop wasn't enough for me or her.

"Fuck me." She managed to say while gasping for air. Her eyes were beyond lustful as she repeated herself. She smashed her lips in to mine not giving me a chance. I slid in to her breaking out lip lock.

"Oh baby." I gave her all of me.